Ancient History II: Drought

"There will always be you in all my ingenuity and insanity. Like a living dream in a cornucopia of false memories. I own not my thoughts, I own not my dreams, I own not that which is yours. For that Ann, I own not myself..."

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'O sige, pack-up na.' utos ni Papa nang makitang tinuturo ko ang aking bulsa. It was a scorching May afternoon and Dad, being aware of my schedule, set me up with his band to substitute for Tito Da who was indespensible at the moment. So for the whole ordeal, it was nothing but the 70's and the 80's. No Nicki Minaj and no songs about sodomy which raped my ear -and my ass thanks to their ridiculous speakers under the seat- everytime I'd take a Jeepney. It was a change of pace well in due. Dad gave me a nod as he placed his bass guitar on the rack. Alam nyang mahalaga ang tawag na hinihintay ko ng hapong iyon. I immediately excused myself from the room.
'I want you now...' the voice on the other end sounded desperate.
'Still at practice, baby.'
'Until what time?'
'Katatapos lang po. Uwi lang ako saglit to change tapos tuloy na ko jan...'
'No. Dumirecho ka na dito. I'm getting a room na. Don't make me wait ha? I love you Hubby...'
'But I'm covered in sweat, dear... Shower lang ako sa bahay.'
'Doon ka na maligo, okay? Or would you prefer I clean you with my mouth?'
'Hindi mo ba ako narinig? Sabi ko nga didirecho na ko jan, di' ba?' her coercion was too effective.
I put my phone away and sighed. Nagmamadali akong pumasok ng studio at lumapit kay Papa para magpaalam.
'Hindi ka man lang ba magbibihis?' puna ni Papa. 'Para kang adik nyan... Mag shower ka naman muna.'
'Di na kaya, Pa... I'm late.' I answered while collecting my things at an incredible pace. 'Sige po. Una na ko.' I nodded at our colleagues before darting out of the room.
Narinig kong pumalatak si Papa. 'Mag dahan-dahan ka lang sa pagpapatakbo.'
'Opo!' sagot ko without looking back. I hopped on my bike and rode as if my life depended on it bearing thirty days of longing and drought.

It was four months after our first date when Ann landed a big position in an international bank. During those months halos araw-araw kaming online at sa gabi naman, kapag hindi umuuwi ang nagsuot ng singsing sa daliri nya, magdamag kaming mag kausap sa phone. She had told me stories about her and of her childhood; how she was growing up, her past crushes, embarrassing stuff, her frustrations and disappointments. Everything. Falling for her was one thing, but it was then I realized how much her flaws and mistakes meant the world to me –to someone who she had met by mistake, and fell in love with despite the wrongness of it all.
'Hubby...' she used to say over the phone with unparalleled sweetness. 'Namimiss ko na...'
'Hmm? Ang alin po?' I used to tease her.
'Naman eh... Ikaw po... Namimiss ko na yan...' she'd whisper kahit na halos dalawang beses sa isang linggo kami magkita noon.
And that's our cue. That was our routine. It never got old. She had Dysmenorrhea back then –and I reckon, up to now- and used to take Midol as prescribed by her physician. But what deemed to be the most effective cure was an active sex life –over the phone and actual. Eventually, during the course of four months, her illness diminished to a point where it hardly exists which relieved me to no end.

However, everything changed when Ann got the job. Dalawang buwan matapos syang matanggap, naging toxic ang trabaho nya. Eight in the morning ang pasok pero dahil sa dami ng trabaho, kadalasan alas diyes nang gabi sya lumalabas; sometimes even as late as two in the morning. Wala namang kaso sa akin since four nights a week akong may set noon kaya active pa ko sa ganong oras. It was our daily activities that suffered the most.

Gone were the days where we talk either on the phone or on Yahoo Messenger all day. Her afternoon fifteen minute calls were all what we're left with. At night, a five minute call saying she's going home had become my breather. Madalang syang makauwi ng maaga noon but when she does, nagpapahanap na ko ng mag stand-in na drummer o kaya naman I just call the night off to be with her. Depende pa kung wala ang asawa nya. Good luck kung magsabay yang dalawang instance na yan.

Natural, hindi na rin kami nagkikita ng madalas; from twice a week, naging twice a month na lang. It felt like a year in between. Parang may nag benta ng kidney ko sa black market ng di ko alam. Yung tipong nagising na lang ako isang araw may tahi na ko sa tagiliran tapos yung kapitbahay ko biglang nag ka kotse... Shet. Sobrang kulang na kulang ako. Nasanay na ang sistema ko sa tinig nya, sa mga tawa at pang gigigil nya, maging sa mga tampo at paglalambing nyang mag pa sa hanggang ngayon ay panaka-naka pa rin akong minumulto. Si Ann pa lang ang hinanap-hanap ko ng ganoon. I have lost control over myself and what little finesse I had in dealing with relationships.

Frankly though, it didn't bother me.

'Hubby nasan ka na? May kasalanan ako sayo... T_T' I read Ann's latest message habang red light. 'Hindi ko na napigil eh... I did it na... I came twice already. Dalian mo na baby. I want you...'
No wonder my phone had more than ten missed calls and several texts. Gusto ko mang mag reply, five minutes na lang at nandon na ako. I ignored the increasing stress inside my jeans and braced myself the way a motorcycle racer would behind the starting line. The light went green and I was a madman unleashed. I was like a virgin going to an orgy. After only two minutes, I found myself knocking the secret knock on our room's door. Partida, naligaw pa ako. The door unlocked on the other side and as per usual, I needed to wait a few seconds before I let myself in. That's how she operated.

Ann had a cautious methodology in handling our illicit affair. And who wouldn't? Queen Paranoia, I used to call her. She had her husband's phone tracked –all three of them. She never uses her car whenever we meet and she goes back to the office no matter how late it gets since nasanay na ang pamilya nya sa ganoong oras ng kanyang pag uwi. That might be the only perk we got out of her job. Furthermore, I can't call her; she'll call me. Parang litanya ng mga HR pag sablay ka sa interview pero ayaw ka nilang mag hysterical pag ni reject ka nila harapan. Marami pa namang bolpen at paperweights doon. Mahirap na.

But those are what I've come to accept. Even the excruciating truth na anino lang ako sa mundong kanyang ginagalawan at, kahit malunod man ako sa sabaw ng sinigang, wala sa panig nya ang iiyak para sa kin. Delicious way to go but still sad...

It was stupid.

But stupidity was a choice in my case.

And it's a choice I've not once regretted.

As soon as I locked the door –all three or four locks of it- Ann got out of the bathroom and came rushing towards me. Hindi agad ako nakagalaw. It was thirty-two agonizing days since I last saw her and, good lord, she's got me in a trance. Ann was wearing a beige chiffon blouse with sleeves rolled up to her elbow, three inch heels making her almost as tall as I as she normally stood five foot, three and a half inch (the half must be mentioned lest it be a death wish) and I'm around five foot seven, and nothing to cover her gorgeous thighs with. Mamula-mula ang kanyang mga tuhod na sinasamahan ng mapuputing hita na kung tatabihan ko ay mag mumukha akong magsasaka sa Banawe Rice Terraces. And as if that wasn't torture enough, she wore this seductive purple laced underwear that kept peeking from behind the hem of her blouse driving my crotch to incite world war.

'Ang tagal mo...' she said but gave me no chance to utter a reply. Ann pulled my head down, kissed me ravenously, and wasted no time unbuckling my belt. I felt a hand inside my fly stroking my wood through the fabric. 'Shit, ang tigas na hubby...' she remarked as she finally freed my eager manhood from its constraints. Bahagyang lumayo si Ann at tumitig sa kin ng ilang segundo habang sinasalsal ang kahabaan ko bago tuluyang lumuhod at sinimulang isubo ang galit na galit kong alaga...
'Fuck, Wifey...' I cursed habang sabik na sabik nyang inilalabas pasok ang titi ko sa bibig nya. 'I missed you too...'
She chuckled at the comment then continued giving head. Her tongue trailed down my member finding my balls and proceeded to suck on them alternately.
'Tang ina, Ann.' my pre cum started to ooze mixing with her saliva.
Sinalsal nya ang kahabaan ng burat ko habang dinidilaan ang ulo nito. 'Iputok mo sa bibig ko... I wanna taste it.' She commanded.
Hindi na ako nakapagpigil. Nagmamadali kong iginiya patayo si Ann at pinatuwad sa lababo na katapat lang ng pinto. Hinubad ko ang panty nya, pagkatapos ay ibinuka ng thumb ko ang labi ng kanyang kaselanan. Sandali kong pinagmasdan ang makipot na lagusan ng pagkababae ni Ann. Parang hindi nya pinagdaanang manganak.
Sinimulan ko ang pagkain sa kanya. Nagtaas baba ang dila ko sa kanyang hiwa na noo'y basang-basa na sa sariling katas. My tongue played her clit slowly, applying pressure and occasionally sucking it. Pagkatapos ay umangat ang dila ko paikot sa butas ng kanyang pwet na lalong nag pahina sa kanyang mga tuhod.
Napalakas ang kanyang mga ungol ng maramdaman nya ang pagpasok ng dila ko sa kanyang ari. 'Hubby!' she exclaimed as her juices doled into my mouth. It was sweet. Every part of her was. Paulit-ulit naglabas masok ang matigas kong dila sa puke ni Ann habang nilalaro ng mga daliri ko ang kanyang tinggil. Puro ungol at mura ang lumabas sa bibig nya. I was brimming with lust just by looking at her; clad in heels and formal clothing akin to professionalism which defied her throes of passion and heated curses. I began to tease her.
'Ma'am Ann, Ano kayang gagawin ng mga subordinates mo kung makikita ka nilang ganyan?'
'Hayop ka...' she retorted. I went back to tongue-fucking her.
Maya-maya pa ay nagsimula na syang mag shiver. She told me na malapit na syang labasan so I quickly got up then unceremoniously rammed my cock straight into her pussy. 'Putang ina!' napamura sya ng maramdaman ang pagbaon ng burat ko sa kanyang pagkababae. Iniangat ko ang isang hita nya at nagsimulang bumayo. Pabilis ng pabilis ang pagkantot na ginawa ko kay Ann dahilan para mapakapit sya sa pader para sa karagdagang suporta.

'Hubby! Hubby! Si-ge pa... Lalabasan na ako!' she pleaded. Her breasts were mashed against the tiles due to the intensity of my thrusts. 'Shit, ito na! I'm cumming!' her body shuddered from ecstasy; her walls contracted as a month's worth of sex poured into one single but prolonged climax. A few more seconds and her vehement moans subsided into little whimpers of satisfaction and relief.

But the round's not over. My little one demands release. It's only past seven and we still have three more hours of copious climaxes and copulation to consummate. (Try saying that a couple of times). Kung susumahin, three hours is too short for any normal couple. But for us, it's a stretch. Now that she has work, it's a miracle.

Hinugot ko ang aking alaga at iginiya sya pasandal sa pader. She helped me take my clothes off while I insisted that she keep hers. There, we locked lips. Palitan ng laway, espadahan ng dila; sinusulit ang mahigit isang buwang pangungulila sa isa't isa. Ipinasok ko ang kamay ko sa blouse ni Ann at dinakot ang kanang suso nito. Nilaro-laro ng mga daliri ang naninigas nyang utong habang sya nama'y mariing sinasalsal ang aking sagisag. Ramdam ko ang matindi nyang gigil dito. After a few seconds of torrid kissing and groping, I lifted her left leg and positioned my member for insertion.

'Ipasok mo na, Hubby...' she begged as my manhood sought entrance.
'Ang alin, Boss?' pag mamaang-maangan ko.
'Shit ka. Wag mong gawin sa kin to.'
'Ang alin po, Boss? Ito po ba?' Napamura si Ann ng maramdaman nya ang unti-unting pag pasok ng ulo ng titi ko sa kanyang kaselanan. But then I stopped midway.
'Kendrick! Please!' she cried. She uttered my name the way an exasperated mother would to her child. Still I didn't move. Mustering what remained of her dominant figure, she looked me in the eye and with a straight voice, she whispered, 'Ken, fuck me now.'
It was too damn adorable to watch. I had no choice but to comply. My hips started to move rhythmically. Pinned against the wall with a cock up her snatch, her expression changed from fierce to submissive in a matter of seconds.
I made love to her that way...
Gently...
Passionately...
Savoring each bite on the forbidden fruit...
Her hand traveled down my spine and landed on my butt gripping it firmly while her eager hips met my thrusts halfway. I started to pick up the pace. Binilisan ko ang pag bayo kay Ann na lalong nagpalakas ng ungol nya. Ipinulupot nya ang kanyang mga braso sa aking batok pagkatapos ay inilabas ang kanyang dila. Muli kaming naghalikan. She sucked my tongue in and out of her mouth matching the speed of my thrusts. She moaned loudly every time my rod would hit her deepest part. Binuhat ko na rin ang isa pa nyang hita dahilan para humanap sya ng suporta sa aking balikat at batok na lalong nag palalim sa aking pag ulos.
'Putang ina, Hubby! Ang sarap mo kumantot...' aniya. 'AAhhhh... Sagad na sagad yung titi mo sa puke ko!'
Parang mawawala na ako sa katinuan. 'Fuck, ang sikip ng puke mo, baby! Nakaka adik laspagin...'
'Sige baby kantutin mo lang ng kantutin.... Sa'yo lang yan... Sa'yo lang ako...'

I obliged with utmost zeal. Nasa ganoong posisyon kami, nang tuluyan kong ilayo ang katawan ni Ann sa pader at nagsimulang lumakad tungo sa kama habang nananatiling naka baon ang burat ko sa puke nya. 'I missed you so much, Hubby...' saad nya sa pagitan ng mga halik. Dahan-dahan ko syang inihiga pagkatapos ay dinampian ng marahang halik sa labi bago muling umulos. Iginiya ni Ann ang ulo ko pababa sa kanyang malulusog na dibdib at sinimulan kong susuhin ang mga ito. Muling nawala sa sarili si Boss.
'Shit, baby! Ba't ganito ka kasarap kumantot? Mababaliw yata ako...' kasabay ng tanong na iyon ay ang pag alpas ng mga hikbi sa kanyang labi..
Ilang minuto pa at naging mas mapusok ang aking pag ulos. I've lost control over my hips as my climax beckoned. 'Fuck, Baby! Malapit na ko!' I warned her.
'A-Ako rin, Mahal... Sabay tayo please... Iputok mo sa loob ko.' she begged as my thrusts became more and more unyielding.
'Akala ko gusto mo sa bibig?'
'Hi-Hindi ko alam... Ahhh.... Ahhh... Kahit saan baby...'
Ilang segundo pa at nag pabaling-baling na ang ulo ni Ann kasabay ng sunod-sunod na malalalim na pag hinga. 'Fuck! Baby! I'm cumming!! she tried to grab a pillow to cover her face with but fumbled. Hindi nya napigilang mapasigaw. Her scream filled the room and echoed in the bathroom. It was so loud anyone outside would've heard it.
'Shit! I-Ito na!' I voiced my impending climax.
I plunged my cock all the way and released my thick, hot seed into her womb; finally, after more than a month of blue balls. I looked at Ann and she was still sobbing from the instense orgasm she just had. Sweet mother of everything I hold sacred, that was satisfying. Every sex feels like the best one yet. I planted a kiss on her forehead before collapsing on top of her.

Everything went silent. Even the AC went on automatic.

'Anong nakakatawa?' pakli ni Ann ng maramdaman nya ang pag alog ng mga balikat ko. Mga ilang minuto na rin kami sa ganoong posisyon.
'So much for that shower...'
Natawa rin si Ann. 'Eh, ano ba! Ilang linggo kaya tayong hindi nagkita...'
Nag angat ako ng ulo para titigan ang nakatawa nyang mukha. 'Isang buwan at dalawang araw po Ma'am.'
'Ikaw na...' Sabay ngiti nya.
Ginawaran ko sya ng halik sa labi bago ako umalis sa pagkakapatong. Humiga ako sa kama at inayos ang sarili payakap sa kanya. Pagkuwa'y bumulong, 'So, may kasalanan ka nga pala sa akin, no?'
Bahagyang namula si Ann.
'Ba't kasi ang tagal mo doon?' pilit nyang pag iiba ng topic habang nakaunan sa aking braso.
Hinubad ko ang blouse at heels nya at muling yumakap. 'Na extend kasi yung practice, dear.'
'Ahh... So, kamusta naman kayo ni Chloe?'
Natawa ako. Grabe, iniiba nya talaga yung topic. Ang babaeng tinutukoy nya ay yung anak ng ka-banda ni Papa.
'Ayun... Nagkakamabutihan na kami...' sagot ko na umani ng mariing kurot. '...Ng kuya nya. Nagkakamabutihan na kami ng kuya nya. Ang gwapo kasi ng lintik na yon.'
Hindi nya napigilang tumawa. 'Seryoso, yung kuya talaga?'
Napailing ako at pumalatak. 'Hindi mo ba pansin? Kakaiba ang lakad ko ngayon. Hirap nga umupo eh...'
'Eww! Kadiri ka, Love!' saad ni Ann sa pagitan ng pagtawa. Her laugh felt so genuine yet so surreal. Right there, were two people goofing around and having fun. The best of friends, the best of lovers. Oblivious to what society holds true. Dehado man ako non dahil sa kanyang pangungurot at pangangagat, I still wouldn't trade that moment for the world.
Ilang minuto pa kaming nagharutan non bago sya nag inat at humikab. 'Baby, kanta mo ulit sa kin yung Kisses... Sige na.' lambing nya.
'Di ka pa ba sawa dun?'
'Never.' She retorted with conviction.
'Mkay...' "Kisses" was first of the many songs I made for her. Hanggang ngayon, kahit anong pilit kong burahin ang kantang yon sa sistema ko, hindi na ko na yata iyon mababaon sa limot.

'I've been painting curtains black. Watching bluebirds as they land on shoulders' Nakita ko syang ngumiti sabay yumakap ng mas mahigpit. 'Oh, I'm feeling something new. And I'm losing all my senses in your kiss.' I watched her close her eyes. 'When you're lying in my arms don't say a word. Darlin' I will never let you go...' Tuluyan na syang nahimbing. I kissed her forehead again before letting drowse take over.

If one could only conveniently stop time...

Naroon kami, sa isang sulok ng kwarto, pinagsasaluhan ang bawal. Doon, sa maliit na kwartong panandaliang nagsisilbing sanktuwaryo ng aming kwento –lingid sa kaalaman ng kanyang mundo. I looked at her with her eyes closed. She uttered no words but my name. I touched her lips with my thumb and thirty-two days of longing began to run its course through my veins. Had I to stand against the world to keep these lips in my possession, I'd take up arms with neither doubt nor regret.

We did the deed twice on the bed and once in the bathroom before we checked out. I hailed a cab for her and saw her off. Her smile through the window marked our transition to reality. Balik sya sa pagiging second-level Supervisor ng isang international bank, balik sa pagiging isang mapagmahal na ina, sa isang anak na sumusuporta sa magulang, sa isang mabuting kaibigan, at balik sa pagiging isang masunuring asawa. Habang ako, balik sa pagiging anino sa mundo nya.

'Ingat ka, Hubby... Text ka pag dating mo house or else hindi ako matatahimik. I hate that bike as much as I love you...' she texted.

I rode off after sending a reply. Despite the odds stacked against me, I was the happiest shadow in existence...

Well, noon yon.

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