To find her again 11

"Hindi ka na yata nagtatampisaw sa ulan." Puna ni Ryan nang matagumpay nilang natawid ang daan patungo sa mansion nina Anne.

Tinanggal ni Anne ang seatbelt at ngumiti nang mababaw.

"Siguro kasi it reminded me so much of what happened between us noon." Halos pabulong na lang ang sinabing iyon ni Anne.

Nagre-replay na sa utak ni Ryan ang nangyari noon nang patakbong hinarap ni Anne ang ulan. Ang paglalaban ng lamig ng tubig at init ng katawan nila ng dalaga. Bakit ba tila kahapon lang nang halikan niya ang bawat bahagi ng katawan nito? Bakit hanggang ngayon, nabubuway pa rin ang tatag ng depensa niya tuwing maaalala ang mga eksena sa pagitan nila?

"What do you remember about it Anne?" Tanong ni Ryan. Hindi niya mailayo ang tingin sa dalaga. She looked weak when she was sneezing and wet years ago. Pero ngayon, kahit yata malubog ito sa putik ay hindi nito ipapakitang nahihirapan ito.

"I was so young and arrogant. Hehe. I know I can twirl you around my fingers. I was so used to controlling my men."

Ryan drew near Anne. It was like meeting her older and more mature sister. He thought she won't change at magiging madali nang pagmukhain itong slut sa pagkikita nilang muli. Pero tila kung gaano kalaki ang pinagbago niya ay siya ring tindi ng improvement ng dalaga. Can he now change the game? Imbes na ito ang maglaro sa damdamin niya ay ito naman ang paiikutin niya.

Inilapat ni Ryan ang palad sa basang shorts ni Anne. Isang buntong-hininga na lang ang layo ng mukha niya mula sa mga labi ni Anne.

"Alam ko na na arogante at playgirl ka, Anne. Ang tinatanong ko ay kung anong nararamdaman mo tuwing naaalala mo ang ginawa natin habang umuulan." Litanya ni Ryan. Ang hirap palang magsalita kung konting kibot lang ay mahahagkan mo na ang kausap mo.

Matamang pinagmasdan ni Anne si Ryan. Mukhang pinahirapan itong maiigi ni Andrew. The eye contact, the assured hands at kahit ang pag-iiba nito ng tono ng boses. Seduction at its finest. She would've been amused to learn that the timid nerdy guy she met is now a totally confident man. Pero gaya nga ng sabi ni Andrew, he did it because he thought he was weak. If only he knew that his character before changed me. Bulong ni Anne sa sarili. Pero batid niyang gaya niya ay bumuo na rin ito ng dingding para subukang protektahan ang sarili nitong masaktan o maaglaruan. She smiled sadly. She knew from experience that yes, she blocked the hurt but she never really healed.

Imbes na umurong dahil malapit na masyado ang mukha niya sa binata, Anne leaned forward. The moment she opened her mouth, she felt his lips. But she did not dare kiss him. She braved the hate in his eyes.

"I remembered darkness, Ryan. Kasing dilim siguro ng kalangitan ngayon. Your kisses, your touch, I never saw them. My eyes were closed the whole time. I felt the battle between your searing lips and the cold raindrops on my exposed skin. Kaya ngayon, kahit ang simpleng maambunan ako ay sapat na para muling alalahanin ang gabing pinagsaluhan natin."

Anne knew she ignited fire in his eyes. She saw his smirk. Getting her to bed tonight will not be sentimental for him. It will only mean he was able to control her this time. Siya naman ang parang nahipnotismo ng karisma nito.

When Ryan removed his jacket from her body and pulled her head for the kiss, she did not resist even if she knew the outcome. She would be just another woman he fucked. But it doesn't matter. For her, tonight is sentimental. Kasabay ng muling pagguhit ng kidlat, umalagwa na rin ang mga kamay ni Ryan para palayain si Anne sa kanyang basang kasuotan. His hands tried to act steadily but he was shaking and he hated it. So instead of fumbling for the buttons, Ryan ripped her blouse at pabalya na lang nitong hinubad ang strap ng bra niya.

His kisses were deeper, but urgent. Nawala na ang gentleness nito. She wondered if he made love to various women this way. As if he wanted to hurt them as he fucks them.

"Shhh, Ryan. Relax." Bulong niya rito. Sinisimulan na nitong tanggalin ang shorts niya at alam niyang nasugatan siya nang bigla nitong ibaba ang zipper niya.

"Don't tell me what to do, Anne. I'll fuck you the way I want." Marahas nitong ibinaba ang shorts niya.

Napamaang na lang si Anne. Tiyak na puro galos ang binti at puson niya nito bukas.

Ryan stopped and looked at her spread in just her panties. He traced the curve of her waist and to her hips. Her skin is darker now but smoother. The soft hollows of her stomach were taut now. Even her legs are toned. It's like fucking an updated version of the woman.

He pulled down her panties and massaged her labia. It glistened in anticipation. Anne is staring at him, trembling. When he plunged his finger inside her, she gasped and closed her eyes.

"How often do you fuck random men now, Anne?" He asked habang dahan-dahang ginagalugad ng daliri niya ang kaloob-looban ni Anne.

"Once a week or everyday?" Marahas niyang ibinaon ang kanyang daliri, not caring if he is wounding her deep inside.

Napapasigaw na sa kirot si Anne but she did not dare complain. She never knew how many women he had hurt because she left him in pain. She owed it to them so she's enduring his painful words and actions.

"Do you invite them sa kubong iyon, ha Anne? Or would you rather screw them sa baba ng waterfalls?" He asked, not really expecting answers.

He saw Anne wince in pain pero kinagat lamang nito ang labi at walang reklamo itong binulalas sa kanya. So she's playing the victim now.

Kung ibang babae ang gumagawa non, baka nainis na siya at lalo pa niyang inabuso ito. It's really infuriating when a girl tries to seduce you and when you pounced on her e akala mo ay parang aping rape victim.

Pero bakit ba hinihiwalay niya si Anne sa ibang babae? E ganoon din naman ito kaya nga inis siya rito di ba? He removed his finger from inside her. Ipinasubo niya ito sa dalaga. Anne swirled her tongue around his finger. Ryan felt the tug of his arousal sa ginawang iyon ni Anne.

Anne rose from the passenger seat. Ryan only watched her as she drew her face near his.

She tried to kiss him but he moved away. Pero nasa batok na niya ang mga kamay ng dalaga. Sa muli niyang pagpiglas, Anne pulled his face closer and kissed him.

Kung may halik na humihingi ng paumanhin, tila iyon ang paghalik ni Anne. It was tender, lingering; leaving no corner of his mouth untouched. May kasama pang hagod sa batok at balikat. Tila humihiling ang bawat haplos at halik nito ng kapatawaran.

Just as he thought he'd succumb from her touches, Anne deepened her kiss. Her hands gently massaging his back are now on his hair, roaming and pulling. It's no longer apologetic. Everything now turned to longing.

He pulled her away and Anne looked at him confused.

"How many men have you bedded after me Anne?" He asked, his eyes searching for an answer even before Anne gave him one.

Sapat na ang saglit na pagsilay ng mga luha ng dalaga bilang tugon.

"I've had them in bunches, Ryan. Hindi naman ako nabakante." Matapang na sagot ni Anne. But her eyes were saying something different.

He could not believe it. Three years. Hindi na niya mabilang kung ilang babae ang naikama niya after Anne. While she...

"Why?" He asked, trying to kiss away the tears she tried not to show.

"Why what?" She asked.

Why didn't you just forget me and fuck anyone who moves? He whispered within him. But he no longer voiced it out. He touched her head gently; caressing her short hair and burying his face on them. She still has the same scent.

"Ryan?" Tawag ni Anne habang nakapinid siya sa dibdib ng binata.

"Yes, Anne?" He said still savoring her scent and the simple vibrations of her heartbeat against his chest.

Anne looked up to him and hesitated before answering.

"Let me pleasure you tonight. Sabihin na lang nating returning the favor from our first meeting." She gushed and she buried her face again on his chest.

Ryan tried to look at her again but she was resisting. Nang maitunghay niya ang mukha ng dalaga, pulang-pula ito. Anak ng tokwa! Marunong pala itong magblush!

Ryan smiled at maraming maliliit na warm feelings ang sumakop sa kalooban niya. Hinalikan niya ang tungki ng ilong ng dalaga.

"Very well, I'm all yours." He said.

Anne flushed a deeper shade of red. She had her eyes closed as she caught Ryan's lips again. Malakas pa rin ang hangin sa labas. Pero mas malakas ang kabog ng dibdib ng dalaga. She wanted Ryan to feel what she had been harboring all these years habang nangungulila rito. Siguro kapag naibuhos na niya ang lahat ng damdamin para rito, magiging payapa na rin sya. Hindi ba't sa kabila ng lakas ng hangin at ulan, walang singliwanag naman ang sikat ng araw pagkatapos ng unos?

Yes, sana nga maging maayos ang lahat after this. Bulong ni Anne sa sarili. Pero may kaunting lungkot na dumampi sa kanya dahil alam niyang lilisan din naman si Ryan matapos ang lahat.

Naisip na lang niyang gaya ng sinulat niyang istorya, ito ang closure nila. Hindi na siya dapat pang umasa sa happy ending.