E.16: Unsatisfied

A reader asked me in my previous post kung bakit daw parang ang rupok ko, and napaisip ako kung bakit nga ba. Maybe I was still curious, marami pa kong gusto madiscover at matutunan. Maybe I missed sex, sabi nga nila once maexperience mo na, hahanapin mo na talaga eh. Maybe malandi lang talaga ako (that time). Or maybe because meron pa akong hinahanap na kulang, kasi sa naexperience ko so far, hindi pa ko satisfied.

I'm not sure if you'd noticed, but based sa mga nashare kong experiences with W, I never came with penetrative sex. I wasn't aware of any erotica site pa that time (2001), pero yung inemail nya sakin na compilation ng sex stories, hilig na hilig ko basahin and laging nadedescribe doon na nilalabasan ang girls habang kinakantot, but how come I have not experienced that?

He did make me experience my first orgasm through rubbing of clit while sucking on nipples, kaya yun na din nakasanayan ko when I masturbate. No finger insertion necessary, just circular clit rubbing using two fingers with nipple pinching, building up on the pace while increasing the pressure ng pagrub until I finally cum. Naka-adikan ko na yun gawin, inaraw-araw ko, record nga was nine times in one day. Masarap? Hell yes, but satisfying? No. Parang may kulang.

W never made me cum din with cunnilingus. He's got the moves naman, he knew what he was doing. Sure masarap, I enjoyed it a lot, napapaangat nya balakang ko everytime, but somehow di ako umaabot eh, unlike yung mga nababasa ko sa stories na nilalabasan sila habang nakaduldol yung mukha ng guy. Bat ganon, ako hinde, nakakainggit naman!

Even kapag pinapasok na nya ko, narealize ko ang sarap-sarap maging babae, ang sarap pinapasok, kinakayod, binabayo. But I never came din eh, not even close. Kahit anong hagod, kahit anong giling, kahit anong angle or position, wala eh. Nasasarapan naman ako, pero never ko nafeel yung sensation na nakikiliti na, yung makati na, yung parang nagbibuild-up na yung libog, yung alam mong you're about to cum, wala eh ni hindi umaabot to that point. I don't know why. Ayoko namang sa pagfifinger lang ako lagi nilalabasan. I thought maybe his size plays a factor? His was average length na payat, yun nga kaya reason? Yun nga ang gusto ko malaman.

Remember yung 20 year-old student na mineet ko nung kami pa ni W, yung kinawang gawa ko ng hand job? Naiisip ko nun, imeet ko kaya ulit yun but this time for sex na talaga, just to see kung mapapaabot nya ko. Kaso naman, virgin nga pala yun, tapos mas juts pa kay W, so malamang wala din akong mapapala.

Now going back to A, when I decided to meet up with him, wala talagang malisya, I planned for it to be just a friendly date lang. Kaso yung ginawa nya sakin inside the cinema, whew! The way na bigla na lang nya sinunggaban ang suso ko, it really turned me on, sobra. Imagine, from kilig kissing, he wasn't even touching my boobs ha, bigla na lang itinaas ang damit at bra ko at sinuso ako, para bang di na nakapagpigil eh, hinuli na agad kiliti ko. Tapos pinakapa pa sakin yung burat nya. My gosh, ang taba!! He's got the moves, he's got the size. Hmm, may potential, very promising. Baka sa kanya ko na makita yung hinahanap ko.

Wednesday kami nagdate and mula non, lagi ko ng naiisip yung burat nya everytime nagsasarili ako. And how his lips and fingers skillfully played with my nipples, I could say mas nagustuhan ko style ni A compared kay W. Pero shit, yung taba ng titi talaga nya nagpapaexcite sakin. Ang sarap pisil-pisilin eh, solid na solid. I imagine myself being fucked by a cock that thick, syet lalabasan siguro ko tiyak. Ang sarap-sarap ng orgasms ko tuwing naiisip ko non pakantot kay A.

And so Saturday came, walang pasok si A and we agreed na magkita ulit but I was set na makitulog pa din sa dorm ng friend ko. Yung sinabi nya last time na sa boarding house nya na lang, I dismissed that as a joke.

Again, we went to see a movie (though we didn't really watch of course), repeated it a few times, spent hours making out and fondling each other. He played with my boobies, ughh, ang sarap talaga, ilang days ko yun namiss!

This time, ipinasok na nya yung kamay ko sa loob ng briefs nya. Shit, parang may lagnat ang burat nya, ang init-init, ang sarap haplusin. At ang taba pala talaga compared kay W, the tips of my thumb and middle finger barely touched at the base. Napasandal pa sya ng nakapikit habang ninanamnam ang paghimas ko. But I didn't jerk him off, himas lang, pisil, piga. Nilalaro ko ng thumb yung precum sa dulo ng ulo. Basang basa din ako nun, parang nangingirot ang loob ng puke ko, parang natatakam na masalpakan ng ganon katabang burat.

After naming lumabas ng sinehan, I texted my friend agad.

"Hey sis, change of plans, di na pala ko matutuloy mag sleep over dyan sa dorm nyo later ha. Stay na lang ako dito sa bahay. See you on Monday =)"

That was of course a lie.