Fetish

And because I need to wait for one more hour in order to reply to my messages, I'll decided to write one of my random thoughts since dito ko lang naman sya pwede ilabas without concerning any judgements.

I don't know why but I get aroused kapag ang genre ng isang story ay rape or forced sex. I know na masama yun but I can't help it. Almost every night bago ako matulog I'll imagine my self being rape. Minsan naman ay gangbang ang nakakahiligan kong imaginin. Being abused by a lot of men makes me wet. And what I like the most is ung matandang lalaki na pinagpaparausan at pinagsasamantalahan ang isang babaeng malaki ang agwat ng edad sa kanya. Parang ang sarap kasi sa feeling. Sometimes naiisip ko na masokista talaga ko kasi whenever I read filthy words such as pokpok, malandi, puta or kahit anong humiliation, namamasa ang keps ko. I know that this is wrong. I shouldn't act as a horny teen. I'm studying in one of the state university and I'm also a scholar but hindi ko talaga mapigilan. It's really weird but it feels good entertaining those thoughts.