KC's dirty lil secret ( Part IV)

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KC's dirty lil secret
(part IV)

"Sunday morning rain is falling, share some cover share some skin. ."

It was one sunday morning and the song keeps playing inside my head. I woked up with a heavy heart. Maybe it's because of what happened last night. .

Me and Chino had dinner with my friends just like what I promised na ipapakilala ko sya sa friends ko, it went well naman lahat naman kami nag enjoy. But things change after ng dinner, hinatid namin si Crisha and Sheena sa dorm nila, then on our way home Chino became a bit different. Hindi sya tulad before na grabe ung enthusiasm nia sakin, and he keep on asking about Sheena. The feeling was like "WTF dude are you out of ur mind obvious ka na trip mo friend ko, and we just had sex" but I didn't voice it out. I answer his questions casually and when we reach my dorm I just bid him a simple goodbye I won't give him a chance to dump me.

No Kiss. No return of glance. No drama
No eye contact. Just plain "bye"

I hurriedly get inside my room, drop my bag on my bed and look in the mirror. I can see the sad look in my eyes, I know I should not be hurting for what happened but I can't help it. Memories of the past keep flashing back, the feeling of not beeing good enough, the feeling of just being an option, insecurities hunt me.

"But no this ain't cool, look up, be confident and be proud. Never ever let anyone to look down on you again KC".

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I was interupted thinking of my thoughts when someone knocked on my door.. .

'KC! kC! . .'

si ate Khaye pala ung ka dorm ko. Binuksan ko ung pinto at pumasok sya.

me: o yes ate?

ate: pupunta ko sa Cuts baka gusto mo sumama?

me: uhmm d pa ko nakakaligo eh

ate: ok lang yan bilisan mo na lang intayin kita.

me: ocge wait lang

After a while natapos na ko mag ayos. Nasa labas na si ate nagiintay. Si ate khaye ung pinakaclose ko sa dorm working na sya, mabait, maganda and petite. Sya lang halos kakwentuhan ko sa dorm parehas kasi kami taga batangas.

Habang iniintay ko sya magpa trim, bigla ko naisipan magpa cut ng maiksi.

" Miss magpapagupit din pala ako." sabi ko sa front desk.

sure Miss dito po. guide nia sakin

ate khaye: oh magpapagupit ka?

me: oo ate naisipan ko lang.

ate khaye: ah ok ano style?

me: hmm d ko alam basta ung hanggang balikat.

ate k: seryoso ka?! sayang bebe! ang ganda pa naman hair mo! ang haba haba tas tuwid pa.

Ngumiti lang ako sa sinabi ni ate.

That day I decided to cut my hair shorter than my usual, ang gaan sa pakiramdam and mas nagmukha kong bata. Deceiving kumbaga no one would think na masyado ko makalokohan. And since few days from now i will be turning 20 this will be a good start for me. .

Months passed and I never see Chino again kahit sa gym pa. Mukang naging bf ko na nga ang gym dahil araw araw na ata nandon ako. After I turned 20 andaming magbago, I changed the way I dressed up from rockish babe to girly and a bit of ahowing of skin. Andaming nangyari na hindi ko akalain na magagawa ko. Ndi na rin ako nag wechat i shift to tinder which is more exciting and fun and way better.

I matched a lot of guys and dated some of them, it became my ego booster. Guys complimenting just to take u out on a date, but nothing is serious in it. People on Tinder only want to have fun.

I first matched Carlo 26 y old, working and he became my friend until now, he's the one who teach not to fall in love with every guy na feel ko ok. He's the one who teach me to just have fun, to live my life the way I want it to be.The one who encouraged me to be confident and encourage me to explore more. To just be cool with life and not to be too serious in it. Enjoy lang kumbaga, life is to short not to live it to the fullest. Talking to Carlo was fun but he haven't ask me to go out yet.

After Carlo I matched Jack. He's a lot different matangkad 6 flat alway with the formal suit and he's 27. Kung si Carlo wholesome si Jack very aggressive. Hindi sya nagaalangan na ipakita at sabhin sakin how he love to see me gone naked and wild. And instead of running away with it, i just go with the flow.

There is the time where me and my friends (crisha, sheena and jean) went on Zambales for a short vacay. Beach and alcholic drinks everywhere.

Habang nagiinuman kami with Crisha's barkada I heard my phone beep. It's already 2 am cno pa kaya gising? I opened the message and saw that it was Jack

"heyy kaze, hows the beach?" pm nia sakin

'ok naman maganda, tahimik pero whitish ung sand and wala masyado tao'

"hmm I can imagine that u wore a two piece"

'naughty, oh well I did and so.'

"and so I want to see it :) send me something"

I'm a lil tipsy that time and d ko mapigilan sarili ko ma sabayan ung flirty and naughty vibe nia. So I send my solo pic on the beach, water is knee deep and I body was wet all over kasi kakatapos ko lang mag dip.

J: damn Kaze u looked hot in there, grabe when will I see u ba ah.

Me: soon babe hahaha don't rush

J: humanda ka sakin pagbalik mo dito sa Manila. . .

Instead na madiscourage kay Jack parang mas naging eager ako to meet him. Maybe because it's not my mind who's deciding but my body.

I feel the heat flowing all over my body everytime Jack show how he want to touch me. There's something with Jack that made me want to do it with him, that made me wan't to show him the naughty side of me.

I don't know if it's him or it's my self alone longing for another man's touch. .