Elizabeth's Mom 5

This man, whose body was pressing heavily on her young body, was necking her ceaselessly. She had never received this intense affection and never had experienced a man whose desire on her was so powerful. Thus, as a consequence of the fondling, fingering, licking, and heavy petting of a passionate burly man, her chains were finally unlocked.

Jessica finally ceased all her resistance. She reached his face with her soft hands, and he paused and faced her. Her mouth was opened, chest heaving, and still catching her breath. She slid her hands from his face to his neck and then, to his shoulder. My wife gave in and said to him, in a firm yet sensuous voice, "Fuck me!"

Umangat mula sa pagkakadapa si Roland at nagka-darapang ina-unbuckle ang kanyang sinturon, tinangal ito, at hinihagis sa sahig, habang nakaluhod sa pagitan ng nakabukakang mga hita ni Jessica.

Nasabik ang asawa ko sa kalembang ng belt buckle habang tinatanggal ang sinturon katulad nang kanyang kasabikan sa kalembang nang paparating sorbetero na kanyang sabik na inaabangan noong bata pa siya.

Nakapikit na umihingal pa rin si Jessica habang ang kanyang mga kamay ay taas-palad na nakapatong sa kama na parang buong-buong ibinibigay ang sarili.

Ibinaba naman ni Roland ang pantalon hanggang sa tuhod at muling pumatong sa nagihintay na katawan ng misis ko. Hindi na siya nag-aksaya ng panahon at kaagarang ipinasok ang kanyang tigas na tigas na ari sa uhaw na uhaw na bukana ni misis.

Para kay Jessica, nahanap niya kay Roland ang atensyon na tunay na nararapat sa kanya. Subalit para naman kay Roland, si Jessica ay isang batang ina at masarap na laman na na-jackpot'an niya noong araw na 'yon.

Namulat ang mata at napa, "AAhh!" naman si Jessica sa pagkabigla dahil hindi niya inaasahan na sobrang laki pala ng ari ni Roland.

Nasanay siya sa matagal na panahon sa nag-iisang hugis at sukat at hindi niya inaasahang maranasan na mapasukan siya ng mas mataba at mahabang burat.

Walang lambing at walang babala at basta-basta na lamang ipinasok ni Roland nang buong-buo at sagad-sagaran ang kanyang katigasan sa loob ng basang pekpek ni Jessica, hanggang matamaan ang kanyang serviks.

"Ohh, "Ohh," "Oh my God, Roland…ang laki ng titi mo…ughh!"

Inilapat ni Roland ang kanyang kamay sa kama, deretso ang mga siko, at angat ang katawan. Mula sa pagkabaon niya sa loob ni Jessica, iniangat ang kanyang pwetan para sa kaunting hugot at buwelo, at sunod-sunod na umulos si Roland.

Samantala, ang pag-alog ng mga suso ni Jessica ay sumasabay din sa pag-ulos ng katawan ni Roland.

Tuluyan na talagang sinaniban ang misis ko nang matinding pagnanasa at handang handa na siyang makipagtalik, pero hindi upang lumikha nang buhay—ngunit para lamang sagutin ang umaalingawngaw na tawag ng laman at nang muling madama ang ligaya at sarap na dulot nang mahayok na kantutan.

Kaya kaagad itinaas ni Jessica ang kanyang mga hita at tuhod para salubungin nang kanyang balakang ang ma-pwersang indayog ni Roland.

Dahil sa mabilis at malakas ang pagsasalpukan nang kanilang mga balat, sunod-sunod at matunog na, "Pak!" "Pak!" "Pak!" "Pak…."na parang palad na pumapalakpak ang maririnig sa bawat hampas ng balakang ni Roland sa gitna ng hita ni Jessica.

Kasabay naman nang bawat sunod-sunod at mabilis na "pak!" kapag nagsasalpukan ang kanilang mga katawan ay ang mabilis at malakas din na "Ah!" ni Jessica.

Malakas din ang laginit nang mga paang bakal nang kama sa semento dahil umusad ito sa tuloy-tuloy ang pag-bayo ni Roland at sa todo at mapusok na paghampas ng kanyang katawan sa ari ng aking asawa.

Sarap na sarap naman si Jessica dahil damang dama niya ang pag-unat ng kanyang makipot na yungib habang naglalabas-masok ang mala-taong kwebang ari ni Roland.

At dahil sa laki nito, napaka-tinding sensasyon ang naramdaman ni Jessica sa lahat nang gilid at sulok nang kanyang unat na unat na puki.

At hindi lang iyon, ang ma-pwersa at makahayop na pagpiston ng tubo ni Roland sa kanyang butas ay nakadagdag din sa kanilang kalibugan.

Sa sobrang tuliro sa sarap, hindi alam kung saan hahawak si Jessica. Pipisil sa braso, hahaplos sa katawan, o hahawak sa bewang ni Roland para sabayan nang pag-hila ang pagkadyot nito.

"Ughh, shit Roland!" "Sige pa!" "Sige pa!" "Sige pa Roland!" "Yhan!" "Yhan!" "Oh ang sarap!" "Ang sarap sarap!" "Oh, itodo mo!" "itodo mo pa!" "Yhan, lakasan mo," "lakasan mo pa." "Harder Roland! "Harder!"

Mula sa kanyang pag-kaka-angat, ganadong ganado si Roland habang pinakikinggan at pinagmamasdan ang mukha ni Jessica na balot na balot sa ligaya.

May kagandahan at kalakasan pa rin ang pangangatawan nang dating sundalo, kaya walang reklamo itong sinunod ang mga utos ng asawa ko.

"Oh!" "Ah!" "Ah!" "Sige pa!" "Sige pa Roland!" "Oh, itodo mo!" "Harder!" "Harder!" Harder, please Roland!" "Harder Roland!" "Sige pa!" "Shit, oh shit Roland!" "Harder!" "harder!" "harder…"

Nilakasan ni Roland ang pwerse sa bawat kadyot. Pawis na pawis na siya, humihinga ng mabilis pero wala pa rin kapaguran. Kaya naman halos mabaliw si Jessica at halos hindi na rin niya makilala ang mismong sarili.

"Shit, oh shit Roland!" "Faster!" Faster!" "Oh, Roland!" "Faster please!" "Faster please!" "Shit!" "Shit!" "Shit!" "Shit!" "I'm cumming!" "I'm cumming!" "Oh, Ronald"! "Lalabsan na ako!" "Sige, pa! "Oh shit, faster Roland!" "Faster…

Itinaas ni Roland ang pwet, hita, at tuhod ni Jessica. Saka dinantay ni Roland ang nakabukakang mga hita at tuhod ni Jessica sa ibabaw ng kanyang mga braso. Sa ganitong posisyon binomba ni Roland si misis.

Tila katapusan na ng mundo para sa asawa ko kaya wala siyang paki-alam sa pagmamaltrato nang titi ni Roland sa kanyang puki kahit na halos lumuwa ang laman ng kanyang namumulang pekpek sa laki at mapusok na pag-hindot ni Roland.

Kaya muling namuo ang tensyon sa katawan ni misis. At upang hindi ma-ipit ang kanyang paghinga na posibleng ikawala niya ng malay-tao at hininga, paulit-ulit na sinabi ng asawa ko na, "kantot pa," "kantot pa," "kantot pa," "kantot pa…"

Nang maramdaman niyang lumalakas na ang presyon ng elektrika sa kanyang katawan, lumalakas din ang pag-mamakaawa niya nang, "kantot," "kantot," "kantot," "kantot," "kantot…" hanggang sa tuluyang mangisay-ngisay ang kanyang na-kuryenteng katawan.

Habang siya'y nanginginig sa tindi ng kaligayahan, nagawa pa niyang magsumamo maski lubos lubos na kataksilan ang kanyang nagawa, "hmmm," "Ohhh," "Ooh," "Oh my God!" "Oh my God!" "Hmmooohh!" "Oh my God!" "Oh, please," "Oh, my God…"

Hindi naman nag-menor sa kakakadyot si Roland sapagkat natangay din siya mga bulgar na salita ni Jessica. Kaya naman halos magdelirio si Jessica sa mala-tsunaming mga alon ng orgasmo na lumunod sa kanyang diwa't kaluluwa.

Hindi lang sa mga engkwentro sa labanan beterano si Roland. Madami na siyang karanasan sa mga babae kaya't beterano na rin siya sa pakikipag-talik.

At maski hindi pulidong dumiskarte o manalita si Roland, ang hinahanap lamang naman ni Jessica ay ang isang lalaki na lubusang magpapaligaya sa kanya pagdating sa maharot na kantutan.

Hinahabol pa rin ni Jessica ang kanyang hininga at medyo mahilo-hilo pa nang hubarin na ni Roland ang bra at blouse ni Jessica at tuluyang hinubad na rin ni Roland ang kanyang pantalon at brief.

At nang hubo't bubad na sila, at habang naka-push up position si Roland, ipinatong niya ang kaliwang binti ni Jessica sa kanyang kanang balikat.

Ang kaliwang hita naman ni Roland ay nakadiin sa nakabukakang kanang hita ni Jessica.

Hawak naman ni Jessica and mga braso ni Roland habang kumkampay sa ere ang kanyang kanang paa sa bawat hampas ni Roland.

Sa ganitong posisyon, kitang-kita ni Jessica ang pag-labas pasok ng tigas na tigas at ang ilang malaking ugat sa titi ni Roland.

Napagmasdan at nabighani din siya sa mga nagbubukulang abs at pecs ni Roland. Hindi niya akalain na meron siyang makakatalik na alaga sa katawan at maskulado. Sa magazine at pelikula lamang siya nakakakita ng ganito.

Fit na fit si Roland kaya hindi rin maiwasang haplus-haplusin ni Jessica ang biceps at triceps ng dating sundalo.

Hindi makapaniwala si Jessica na natagpuan niya ang isang ganitong lalaki. Maski mas matanda sa kanya si Roland, malakas at ma-resistensya naman ito at mukhang kayang makipag-tagalan.

Alam ni Jessica na ito ay hindi isang panaginip kaya naman gising siyang nangarap. At oras din iyon, nag-pasya siya na si Roland ang gusto niyang makasama.

Si Roland naman ang kumontrol sa bilis at lakas nang pag-indayog. Nais niyang namnamin ang masikip ng puki ni Jessica.

Naging steady and timing nang pag-ulos ni Roland at halos sabay silang napapa, "Ha," "Ha," "Ha…"

Hihilahin niyang palabas ang kanyang katigasan, ngunit bago tuluyang lumabas ang ulo nito, ay buong-buo niyang ibabaon at isasagad muli sa ka-loob-looban ni Jessica.

"Ooh," ang maririnig kay Jessica sa bawat ulos habang tuloy niyang pinapangarap na makasama si Roland.

Inabot din ni Jessica ang kanyang tinggil at nilaro-laro niya ito habang kinakantot siya ni Roland. Pareho silang libog na libog habang pinagmamasdan ang bawat isa.

Hindi narin naka-tiis si Roland sa ka-seksihan at kagandahan ng aking asawa.

Itinulak ni Roland ang mga hita ni Jessica sa kanyang dibdib, na halos matakpan ang kanyang mga suso. Dahil dito, umangat ang pwet at balakang ni misis.

Tuloy and patulak na paghawak si Roland sa ilalim nang mga hita ng asawa ko habang kinakantot niya ito nang sagad-sagaran. "Ha!" ng "Ha," si Roland habang siya'y bumabayo.

Dahil sa kakaibang karanasan, pinagmasdan ni Jessica ang lalaking halos ma-ulol sa pagkantot sa kanya. Pikit na pikit na rin si Roland na hudyat na malapit nang pumutok ang kanyang mga bayag. Dahil dito, nagalak ang aking asawa na makita at madama ang nalalapit na orgasmo ng kanyang katalik.

Dahil sa sobrang libog at tuwa, bumilis ang pintig ng puso ni Jessica, na sa tindi nang tibok, ay parang kakawala ito mula sa kanyang dibdib.

Naka-hawak pa din nang patulak sa mga hita ni Jessica si Roland habang namumuo na rin ang boltahe ka kanyang bayag, ari, at puson. At hindi lamang sobrang pikit ang mga mata, namilipit din ang mukha ni Roland.

At ng lalabasan na si Roland, itinaas ni Jessica ang kanyang mga kamay upang salubungin ang pag-bagsak sa kanya ni Roland at para yakapin niya ito.

Napayakap din si Roland nang mahigpit at nang kumilig ang kanyang katawan, napasigaw siya nang, "AAhhh," "AAAhhh, "AAhhh," "OOHhh, Jessica," "Hhaa," "Hhaa," "Hhaa…"

At ng medyo humupa na ang orgasmo ni Roland, muling nag-halikan ang bagong magkasintahan. Sa muli nilang pag-hahalikan, mahinay at madamdamin na naglaro ang kanilang mga labi at dila. Dito na naging romantiko si Roland at hinalikan niya si Jessica na tila ba matagal na niya itong nobya.

Ganon din si Jessica, nakipag-laplapan at dilaan sa tila dati pa niyang karelasyon. Pagkatapos ay nagka-tinginan sila, napahinga sila ng malalim at napangiti sa bawat isa dahil sa lubos na kasiyahan.

Kumalas si Roland sa kanilang pagkakayakap at tumayo upang kunin ang kaha ng sigarilyo at lighter mula sa bulsa ng kanyang pantalon. Tumabi siya kay Jessica at sinidihan ang isang stick.

Biglang hinaplos ng asawa ko ang pawisang mukha ni Roland at hinalikan niya ito sa pingi. Namuo na nga ang pagkahaling nitong babae sa bagong kakilalang lalake.

Nanigarilyo si Roland habang hubo't hubad silang magka-akbay sa kama. Inabot ni Jessica ang sigarilyo mula sa daliri ni Roland at hinit-hit din ito.

Napa-ubo siya ng kaunti at napatawa na lang si Roland. Ngunit tuloy lang ang kanilang pag-yosi sapagkat napakasarap talagang manigarilyo pagkatapos ng isang matindi at satisfying na kantutan.

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Naka-upo pa rin ako sa sahig nang matapos ikwento ng asawa ko ang nangyari sa kanila ni Roland kani-kanina lamang.

Listening to her story, I felt my gut wrenched in anger. But I felt so helpless, too.

I cannot turn back time, for there's no going back. Her having an affair was not a threat. It was not a warning anymore. She had done it. I was consumated.

Standing in front of me, suddenly acting differently, plus her appearance and odor, confirmed her story that she fucked somebody.

Yes, I was angry. But mostly mad at myself. I was so stupid not to anticipate that the way I treated her would someday have this consequence.

I knew I wronged her and neglected her even before this affair happened. I kept telling myself that I'd changed and would treat her better. However, that plan never happened and still took her for granted.

Right there on the kitchen floor, I realized that I had been preoccupied with my feelings, interests, and needs but utterly failed to consider hers.

Guilt, anger, and pain consumed me. I was crying on the cold concrete floor of our kitchen. The collar of my old, torn shirt was moist with my tears and snot from wiping my face.

Standing by the sink, my wife looked at me without pity.

Slumped on the floor like a scolded child, she saw right through me as a weak and miserable man. That I was hiding behind a facade and behind all the pretenses was an insecure person.

The boy that she first met back in school and courted her, and who later became a man and married her was just a pathetic little boy, after all.

The real me unfolded right before her unforgiving eyes.

I lifted my tired head and looked at her, trying to find any trace of compassion in her eyes, but I found nothing. I dragged myself on the floor and moved closer to her.

I again embraced her thighs and legs. I felt so cold in that one summer night that my body shivered as I cried kneeling in front of her.

I looked up at the thought of begging for forgiveness. Jessica looked at me, waiting for me to say something. But even in my most defeated form and shape, I was still full of pride and would rather endure the pain of losing her.

And so, she punished me.

She lighted another cigarette, and her unsympathetic voice called my name. When I looked up, her head slowly shook from side to side a little as she slowly blew the cigarette's smoke to my face.

My heart broke at the way she was treating me. I hugged her and started kissing her thighs through her skirt as if I was a dog asking for forgiveness after ruining her favorite pair of shoes.

She just pushed me with her knee, so I kept hugging her and kissing her as I knelt on the floor.

When I tried to reach her chest, she'd moved my hand away. When I tried to grab her ass, she pushed my hand out, and she pressed her back on the edge of the sink so I would not touch her butts. I caressed her legs, but she moved it the way she'd shooed a mosquito or a fly on her skin.

Since my wife knew that I was not letting her go and knew that I was hurting deep inside about her infidelity, she rubbed it in to make me feel worse.

She grabbed my hair with her left hand with her cigarette in her right hand, pulled my head, and pressed my face on her crotch. I could really smell her scent through her skirt. She ground her hips while my face was still pressed on her as I caressed the sides of her legs and thighs.

And then, while her cigarette was fixed between her index and middle finger, she used her right little finger to pull the edge of her skirt up.

After I realized her lead, I stopped caressing her and pulled her dress up higher to expose her mound. She pressed my face on her, and I could smell her whole-day unwashed scent.

Her pubic hairs were moist and musky. Moreover, I could sense that very distinct after-sex smell exuding from her vagina. She again blew smoke on my face.

The smell of her vaginal discharge, her dried pee, her cum, her smoke, and his semen, and the trace of their sweat made me dizzy of a sudden, yet unknown feeling.

I wanted to taste her. I stuck my tongue and touched the front of her folds. She felt it, and instead of pushing my head away, she pressed my mouth to her pussy.

"Gusto mo siyang matikman, ha?"

I did not answer and kept licking her.

"O heto…"

She lifted herself, sat her butt on the edge of the sink, and spread her legs. Some of her pubic hairs were stuck together, entangled with some dried liquid. Her dark red labias were engorged, and some thick glue-like fluid oozed from her. Her dried lube and cum also covered her perineal and inguinal areas, her anus, and her lower inner butts.

In a sneering tone, she said, "Hmm, nandyan pa siya!"

Unexpectedly, the idea that she just had sex with another man and his seeds were still inside her made the earlier sudden and unknown feeling very familiar. Though it was that familiar feeling, that moment, such feeling was more intense than what it has been before.

While I was very jealous and hurting, my mouth trembled, so I licked and cleaned her vulva and anus with my tongue, eating everything that was dried, sticky, and flowing.

I stuck my tongue further inside her, and I licked as far as I could stick my tongue and scooped everything from her recently fucked cunt.

My wife and I used to cum kiss. I would ejaculate in her mouth or on or around her lips. Then we'd kissed, shared, and swallowed my semen together with our kiss.

Sometimes, when she'd be on top, Jessica would sit on my mouth after I cum insider her. I'd licked, slurp, and drink my semen and her juice. Then, she'd kiss me and share our blended fluids.

That night, I tasted that blended mixture, but it was not with my semen.

"Masarap ba siya…hmm?" She was hiding her pleasure, and I did not answer. I kept licking her like a dog licking his master-owner.

And while she seemed to enjoy the touch of my tongue, she told me that what pleasured her was the idea that she humiliated me and that I was helplessly relishing my shame.

"Ganyan ka pala, akala mo kung sino ka."

I just looked up, and my sad, teary eyes agreed with her.

"Bandang huli, wala ka rin palang kwenta," banat pa din niya.

I was breathing heavy, and my hands were shaking, and when I sealed my lips on her clit to suck it, she held my head with her left hand and pushed me away.

I was so disheartened like a dog whose treat was taken away.

She closed her hips, still sitting by the sink. Her right foot reached and flick my erection inside my shorts and said, "tang ina, nalilibugan ka pala sa ganito,"

"Ang rupok mo lang pala…," as she again blew her smoke on my face.

She stood up and was about to walk away, so I held on her hips while still kneeling on the floor. With a firm voice, she said, "punyeta ka, bitawan mo nga ako."

Her complete transformation took away the girl I chased in the hallway and the young lady I married. I have lost my wife that night and knew that our marriage was practically dead.

But I was clinging to the hope that she won't leave me. If I could not beg her not to go, I'd bargain with anything she'd like me to do just for her to stay, even for a while.

She turned around, so my face was on her ass, "wag, please…dito ka lang."

She walked away towards the laundry area to throw her cigarette butts. So I stood up, still in embrace, and followed her.

As I held her, she pushed me with her right shoulder as we both walked into the laundry area. She threw the cigarette butts on the trash and was about to return to the kitchen.

I was still hugging her from behind and kissing her neck. She felt my erection on her back. My body was shaking in fear confusion. I feared her strong rejection, but curious by the idea that a strong and well-endowed man made her cum.

She taunted me, "Ano? Gusto mo? Gusto mo?"

"Oo, please, please wag mo akong iwan…" as I begged her.

"I don't want anything from you."

"I'll do anything you want, just don't leave me."

I was really upset, breathing hard and sobbing a little. I hugged her and rested my right cheek on her back.

"Gusto mo ng sloppy seconds?"

"Yes, please…love, please."

"Don't you call me love or sweatheart ever, again!"

"Yes, hindi na…kahit anong gusto mo."

She moved closer to the wall that separated the laundry area and the backyard. I followed her with my arms still wrapped around her.

She reached up and held two bars on top of the wall. She spread her legs, at least shoulder-width apart, and stuck her butt out towards my groin.

"From now on you can only fuck me from behind."

"Yes, sige. Kahit anong gusto mo."

"I don't want to see your stupid face when you fuck me."

I pulled my shorts down and lifted her skit, exposing again her bare pussy. I thrusted my penis inside her and fucked her wildly.

I grunted, "Huh!" "Huh!" "Huh!" on every push, and every exertion, as she held the bars firmly to brace herself.

Her breasts were jiggling inside her blouse, so I reached her left breast with my left hand and grasped her waist with my right hand. I became louder and louder because I never felt such intensity until that night.

"Uhm, uhm, uhm, uhm, he made me cum several times," Jessica said as I pounded her.

I kept thrusting my hips, and we made some slapping sounds as our skins bumped.

"Uhm, uhm, uhm, he fucked me so good…uhm, uhm," Jessica, added.

I pulled her hair, and her head extended towards me, and with her eyes closed, she said to me, "uhm, uhm, hm, hm, nilabasan siya sa loob ng puki ko…sa loob ng puki ng asawa mo."

Upon hearing that, I thrusted my hips more forcefully. Though I still felt angry, her insults were trumped by the situation, and I lost my self-control.

"Uhm, uhm, hayop ka rin pala…nalilibugan ka sa ginawa sa akin."

I was panting and close to cumming and Jessica noticed it.

"Sige, ilabas mo yang lampa mong tamod."

As I grabbed her hair, she turned her head and trained her gaze to the left and up. She held her sight in that direction, and I noticed that her eyes were looking seductively. I looked in the same direction and saw our neighbors, who were a couple, watching us on their terrace.

The wife, miss Laurie, was covering her mouth with her two hands, but her eyes were wide opened. The husband, Kuya Rolly, smiled at me, shoved his right fist a little forward with his thumb pointing up.

I slowed down my hips because I felt embarrassed, but my wife whispered at me, "let them watch…"

I wanted to please my wife and did not want her to feel upset, so I kept thrusting my hips and resumed fucking her harder.

After the couple realized that we knew they're watching us, the couple thought it was okay to watch when we did not say anything and continued having sex in the laundry area.

Although that was the first time that some other person or persons saw her having sex, I realized that night that my wife enjoyed being watched.

She held her seductive stare at the couple for a while, allowing them to see her face in pleasure. But the fun was not coming from me. She became so aroused from displaying herself having sex in front of them.

She let go of one of the bars and rubbed her clit, "Uhmm, uhmm, hmm…"

Watching her masturbate made me lost control, so I grasped her waist with my hands and pumped her harder.

She then held the bars again with her both hands to brace herself from my successive and powerful thrusts.

Unbashful, Jessica cried, "Ahh," "Ahh," "Ahh," "Ahh…" as the couple watched in amazement.

I, too, shamelessly grunted, "Ha," "ha," "ha," "ha," "ha…" as I was nearing to explode.

Then, her breathing stopped, and when she gasped for air, her body trembled in orgasm and moaned, "Oh," "Oh," "Ohhh," "Hhhmmm!" "Shit!" "Ohh!" "Ahh!" "Ahh…."

I ejaculated so hard, too, and I fell on the floor with my dick flopped on the side. I was fully exposed to the couple as I sat spent on the floor. My wife was still holding the bars with her hands as she tried catching her breath.

I saw miss Laurie smiling. Her palms pressed like in prayer in front of her mouth; her fingers made small clapping motions, showing her appreciation for our "show."

Kuya Rolly gave us another thumb ups before they retire inside their room.

When my wife saw them leave, she left me sitting on the floor of our laundry area, and as she walked away, she warned me in a stern voice, "Don't you ever pull my hair again!"

"Ah, oo. Sige…" Sabi ko naman.

She also ordered me, "dyan ka matulog sa sofa."

I did not say anything. She went upstairs, checked our daughter, and slept alone in our bed.

On the sofa lying alone, I was trying to absorb what just happened and pondering about the idea that my wife has a lover who seemed to be a lot better than me.

But I felt that I could not even compare myself to him because I'm nothing to my wife now. After that day, she has only one man, and I was just an adjunct to this household whose duties were not to piss her and follow what she wanted.

Deep inside, I was hurting and embarrassed. I used to be my wife's confidant, and she'd shared all her secrets, fears, and desires. But now, she didn't trust me; worse, she despised me; worst, she no longer derived excitement from me.

But there's still this strange feeling that even I was confused. Jessica was surprised too, and somehow disgusted with me. However, she took the pleasure of the idea that I knew she's having an affair. She liked that I was tormented.

But was I suffering?

As I lay on the sofa, smoking Roland's cigarette, the thought of the two of them flirting, kissing, fondling, and having sex seemed not to bother me. Instead, while I blew my smoke to the ceiling, I was having an odd thrill thinking about my wife's wild encounter with Roland.