My First Love

This happened at a time when I was still semi-matured. Why I say so? Because this is a period in my life when I've already watched a few porn movies, I've experienced long kissing moments, and I've touched manhood and experienced getting touched myself, in the boobs only though.

I've known Joaquin through a friend of a friend. Nireto sya sakin ng friend ko -- bestfriend daw ng boyfriend nya and Joaquin is still single. Tall, dark, and handsome. We met at a time that cellphone era is just starting to boom, and texting is expensive, piso isang text, and rare pa ata ang promo nun, forgive me for the poor memory.

Like Ian, Joaquin is also getting ready to enter the military force. They're both fresh graduates then, so a few years older lang samin ni Jane. We text some, we call some through landline. We decided to meet finally, and tama nga ang pinagyayabang sakin ng mga tropa nya. The pictures did not do him justice. He is everything a marupok like myself would go gaga for. Matangkad, kulay kayumanggi, matangos ilong, malamlam ang mga mata, and maganda ang ngipin na nakikita ko kapag nagsmile sya. Problema lang sa kanya, sobrang mahiyain. Palabiro pero mahiyain pa rin, kumbaga, hindi garapal.

We decided to go on a lunch date with our friends Jane and Ian. So double date ito after our class (I was still in college then). Jane is a bit taller than me, and Ian, her boyfriend is about 5'8". Joaquin is significantly taller than Ian though, 5'10" which means, I'll be the dwarf in the group. Our ligawan period technically ran for a few weeks only. Sa tagal namin mag-usap sa phone, buong buhay namin ata ay nashare na namin sa isa't isa.

We had pasta that day. Joaquin sat across my chair, and Ian and Jane are facing each other, too. Perfect time to marvel at Joaquin's beauty.

Ian: Manunuod ba ng sine?
Jane: Ewan ko, wala na akong class. Ikaw Jazz?
Me: Wala na rin akong class. Mag 3PM pa lang naman, pwede pa siguro. If may tickets pa. And if walang ibang date si Joaquin. (I teased a little)
Ian: Joaquin, pre, meet mo pa ba yung Ligaya ba yun? (kilala akong pikon kaya lalo akong iniinis ni Ian, which is his nature talaga)
Joaquin: Wag ganun pre, selosa girlfriend ko.
Jane: Whoa! Sinong girlfriend mo? Jazz ba pangalan nyan?

For some reasons, hindi naman ako nakakibo. I looked down at my plate, I can already tell that my face is red. I felt a kick below the table and when I looked up, I saw Ian's face. "Sinagot mo na ba to si Joaquin?" I did not answer. "Dapat pala mag-celebrate tayo, kayo na pala e, di nyo man lang sinasabi samin. Mag-inom na lang tayo."

Honestly, hindi ko alam kung kami na nga o hindi pa. Wala naman akong sinasagot, dahil wala namang nagtatanong. All I know, is that we call and text each other daily, and this is the first time na nagkita kami. After being so confident of my brains, how I look, how I intelligently and sensibly converse over the phone, I suddenly got insecure after seeing Joaquin. Ang gwapo nya talaga.

We decided that we will just go to the apartment my parents is renting out for me para mag-inom. An apartment that looks complete, since everything's been provided for by the generous seniors. Dito kami madalas tambay ng college friends and hs barkadas kapag may celebration or inuman. This is pretty much like home to my friends.

My apartment is a two-storey apartment with two rooms. Two toilet and bath, one inside my room, and one downstairs. Nagtimpla kami ng vodka and C2 lemon because that's what a pasweet kolehiyala should be drinking. Hindi tayo magpapahalata na manginginom tayo diba? Although, I've tried beers and some hard liquors already, pero yun ang nakaimbak sa apartment. Apat na vodka bottles. One vodka bottle plus C2 sa pitcher. And naglabas ako ng boy bawang for pulutan.

We talked about a lot of things, slowly, Joaquin and myself warmed up to each other and sat next to each other. Minsan nadadampi ang kamay ko sa tuhod nya, unconsciously resting. Sa halip na mailang, di ako nagpapahalata. Si Joaquin naman, may times na sadyang nalalaglag ang kamay nya mula sa pagkakaunat sa back rest ng couch, at matagal nyang hindi aalisin ang kamay sa likuran ko, slowly, may free back rubs ako. Which only worsens what I feel coz nakakainit ng pakiramdam. I am physically attracted to him. Nakaubos na kami ng dalawang pitchers and this is my third time fixing us another round. Medyo hilo na din ako. I heard Joaquin excused himself to go to the bathroom. Nadaanan nya ako and bahagyang lumapit sakin. "Okay ka lang? Baka lasing ka na?"

I answered, "Yes, okay pa. Mag 6PM pa lang. Ikaw ba okay ka pa?" Ibinalik ko ang tanong habang natatawa sa kanya kunwari.

"Okay pa ako, matibay sa inuman to." He came closer and those words were close to a whisper. Lumapit pa sya at idinikit ng bahagya ang katawan sakin. I can already tell that he could smell my hair. Naconscious ako bigla. Mabango pa ba ako? Baka amoy bangkay na ako, 8am pa nagsimula ang araw ko sa school. "Thank you."

Tapos ko na haluin ang vodka and juice, at humarap ako sa kanya, which didn't allow me much space to pivot, kaya halos dikit na ang mga katawan namin. "For what?"

He lowered his face and planted a soft kiss in my lips. Natulala ako at di nakagalaw. Pumunta sya sa CR habang ako naman ay ilang segundo munang natulala bago nakabawi. I went to the living room kung saan andun sina Jane and Ian.

"Alalayan mo naman si Joaquin, boyfriend mo na kaibigan ko, di mo man lang aalalayan. Baka napano sa CR." ani Ian.

"Okay lang friend mo." ismid ko.

Naiilang ako sa malalang landian nitong dalawa sa harapan ko kaya inayos ko na lang yung mga basang tapon sa center table na naging patungan ng mga inumin at kinakain namin. Ilang sandali pa, nakabalik na si Joaquin, mukhang bagong hilamos.

He sat next to me and this time, naka-akbay na sya sakin. He grabbed me closer to him and smelled/pecked my temple. "Hi Miss Beautiful," bola nito. Walang pangangantyaw mula kina Jane at Ian, itinuloy namin ang kwentuhan at inuman.

Lumipas pa ang isang oras, at paubos na ang vodka mix. I was about to go up and fix another round when Joaquin stopped me and grabbed my hand. Nawala ako sa balanse at napaupo sa kandungan nya. He's half-drunk. Half-drunk I'm sure coz it is not possible for this guy to get drunk sa timpla ko. Mas malakas to uminom sa tingin ko. He kissed me in the mouth.

Jane and Ian are busy cuddling and kissing, too (I think), dahil walang pumapansin samin. Matagal ang halik, soft and slow, tapos magiging mariin at mapaghanap. I can feel his tongue playing with my own, his hands now in my hair, my hands are busy too, caressing his shoulders, back, and neck. Hindi ako expert sa kissing pero alam kong masarap tong ganitong halik. Nalulunod ako sa sarap. May kakaibang init akong naramdaman sa puson ko, pinabibigat ng alak ang nararamdaman kong pagkahilo. His hands are now inside my blouse. Kung kelan nya nagawang ipasok yun, hindi ko alam, pero nararamdaman kong hinihimas nya ng masarap na masahe ang dalawang dede ko kahit may bra pa ako.

"Not here," bulong ko.

I stood up and held his hands.

"Akyat muna kami," nasabi ko. Jane and Ian are still busy. Sa peripheral vision ko, bahagyang nakahiga sa couch si Jane and Ian is slightly on top of her, they're kissing.

I am still holding Joaquin's hand and led him to the stairs. Pagpasok sa kwarto ko, isinara nya ang pinto and started kissing me while we're still standing. His hands are now free to roam in my body. Masakit na masarap ang bawat lamas nya sa dede ko. Mapaghanap at sabik. Mas masarap ang mga halik ngayong malaya kami at walang ibang kasama sa kwarto.

***To be continued***