Insensitive

"I miss you," Marie has been typing and erasing those words on her phone. She can't seem to make up her mind whether to send it or not. She's been having this constant internal battle about how she must feel for him.

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How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice you'd know anywhere?

They are finally meeting in person after weeks of sending messages to each other.

Marie was very anxious about meeting him. After all, they just knew each other through a common friend. They were to meet at a coffee shop. It was nothing, just a coffee date. She arrived a tad bit early.

And because it's a coffee date, she just chose to wear something casual: shorts, shirt and platform shoes. Nothing fancy. Her hip-length wavy hair was tied in a bun and she was wearing light make-up that accentuated her eyes.

While waiting, she decided to order first. She got her favorite, mocha latte, and chose to sit outside so he'd easily spot her. She was lost in her thoughts while sipping her coffee, when someone tapped her on the shoulder and asked, "Excuse me. Marie?"

Marie looked up without putting down her mug and answered, "Yes?"

"Aries," he said and sat in front of her, smiling.

"Oh, hi! Nice to finally meet you!" Marie replied, put down her coffee and smiled. She scrutinized the guy in front of her.

Aries was wearing a plain black shirt, cargo shorts and rubber shoes. He has long wavy hair tied in a pony and is wearing specs.

"I like your smile. You become prettier," he told her .

Marie felt the heat rush to her cheeks. It's one thing to be complimented through messages and it's another thing if it was said to her face. She considers herself an introvert and doesn't talk or meet up with people she barely knows. So, it's some sort of a privilege that she gave her time and effort to get to know Aries.

"Aren't you gonna get coffee?" She asked. "This is a coffee date, after all." She added, teasing him a bit.

"Right!" He smiled and stood up to get himself one.

Marie released her hair from its bun and smiled to herself, thinking, "This is gonna be an interesting day."

Aries came back with his coffee and some pastry. Marie smiled at him when he sat down.

"So, how's life treating you?" Aries asked while taking a bite of his croissant.

Aries was intently looking at her and was amused at how Marie would try to avert her eyes when he looked at her. He studied her features. Her eyes are cat-like and very expressive that will mesmerize you and could drown in them. She looked so pretty as she tucked her hair behind her ear at the sudden gust of wind.

"So-so," she replied while taking another sip of her coffee, trying to avoid his gaze. "Damn," She thought. She's so damn nervous that she can't look him in the eye.

Aries smiled and continued to eat his croissant. He was staring at something to the left which gave Marie a chance to steal a glance at him.

"He's kinda cute," she thought and unconsciously bit her lower lip when suddenly, Aries looked at her, catching her staring at him. It was too late for her to look away causing her to flush profusely.

"Why are you staring at me?" He asked without breaking eye contact.

Her eyes widened and her voice cracked when she replied, "I'm not staring at you!"

He shrugged and said, "If you say so."

To divert his attention, Marie folded her arms on the table, leaned forward and asked, "So, what's the plan?"

It seemed to work as Aries talked about things they could do that day. Finally, Aries and Marie are standing by the door of her place after a long day. They had fun going around the city, just doing anything they could think of doing. The plan was to be spontaneous that day. And when they decided to call it a day, Aries offered to bring her home.

Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face that told me
Maybe, you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive

Marie unlocked the door and opened it before facing Aries, smiled sweetly and said, "Thank you for bringing me home. I had a great time."

"I'm glad you had fun," replied Aries. "I was worried you won't enjoy my company."

"Are you kidding me? I had a blast!" her smile widened. "Thank you, again."

"No problem. I have to get going," he said.

"Take care," she told him.

Aries leaned forward to accept Marie's hug and hugged her back. He was about to give her a kiss on the cheek when she turned towards him and his lips landed on her lips. They were both too stunned to move away from each other. Marie looked Aries in the eye questioningly but soon found herself closing her eyes as he leaned in for another kiss, and another, and another. The kiss deepened and a soft moan escaped her lips.

When Aries heard her moan, he pulled her closer to him and kissed her passionately, their tongues intertwining. He pushed the door to open wider while pushing their bodies to enter the room. He kicked the door shut. He then turned her around, pinned her back to the door and raised her hands above her head and clasped them together. They were both panting when they broke off the kiss. Aries rested his forehead on hers as he tried to catch his breath.

"You taste so good," Aries whispered.

After a few breaths, he kissed her forehead, her eyes, the tip of her nose and her cheeks. Marie is breathing heavily due to the anticipation and excitement she feels. He smirked and instead of kissing her lips, he stuck out his tongue and traced her lip line starting from the corner of her mouth to the center, then from the other corner to the center. He further teased her by slightly sucking her lower lip and licking it. She gasped at the pleasure he's giving her. He nibbled her lip ever so gently and licked it alternatively which elicited a soft whimper from her. He smiled knowing the effect it has on her.

Aries captured her lips in a very soft kiss and traced kisses down her chin, up her jawline to her ear. He licked her ear and suckled her earlobe softly. Again, she whimpered in delight. He then proceeded to lick and nibble down her neck. He stopped for a few seconds to suck the same spot and knew that it would leave a mark on her porcelain white skin. He smiled at the thought. He continued to lick her neck with soft small bites down to her cleavage and stopped. He straightened up and looked her in the eye, seeking permission to continue.

In between her ragged breaths Marie whispered, "Don't stop… Please…"

He claimed her lips forcefully this time, slipping his tongue inside her mouth, dueling with her tongue, exploring her mouth. She didn't back down from his assault. She aggressively sucked his tongue, his lower lip. She kept grinding her body against his. As she can't pull him closer using her hands, she locked her leg on his leg to pull him closer. She could feel his hardness against her and this made her shiver and drench her panty with her juices.

Aries let go of her hands and slid his hands inside her shirt, bent down and kissed her exposed tummy. He slowly peeled her shirt upwards and kissed the flesh exposed by her shirt. Marie's hands are on his head, ruffling his hair, urging him to go higher.

He removed her shirt and kissed her hungrily. With her hands free, she wrapped her arms around his neck to pull him closer and kept grinding her crotch against his. Aries slid his hand behind her thigh, lifted her up and carried her to the bed. Marie instinctively wrapped her legs around his waist.

Aries laid Marie on the bed gently. His eyes never left her body while removing his shirt and went on top of her. He lowered his face and lightly touched his lips on hers. He caressed her face with his finger, down to her neck, her collarbone, towards the valley between her breasts. He kissed the exposed flesh of her breast which caused her to inhale sharply. He removed the cloth covering her breast and blew lightly on her nipple. He flicked his tongue on her nipple, circled it slowly, captured the hardened nub between his lips, and pulled it lightly. Marie moaned from the pleasure and arched her back.

Aries deftly slid his hands behind her back to unclasp her bra. He kept suckling and rolling her nipple between his teeth alternately. When Marie felt her bra loosen, she pushed him slightly, sat up and removed her bra. She reached for the waistband of his shorts and helped him remove the garment. Her eyes widened at the sight of his cock.

Marie pushed Aries to lay down and took his cock in her hand and started to move her hand up and down its length. She stuck out her tongue and slowly licked the tip of his cock, tasting the precum oozing out. She licked downward, circling around its head and without warning sucked the entire head. Aries almost bolted up from the pleasure and tightened his hold on her hair. Marie continued to suck the head hungrily then let it out causing a popping sound.

Aries was breathing heavily which made Marie smile, indicating he liked it. But she's not yet done. She bent to lick the base of his cock and up his length, flicking her tongue as she reached the head. She did this repeatedly, causing him to groan in response. Marie looked up at him looking at her. Without breaking eye contact, she slowly engulfed his cock with her mouth. Aries thrusted his hips upward and grabbed onto Marie's hair.

Marie started bobbing up and down his length, slowly, at a steady rhythm, circling his cock with her tongue as she sucked him. Then she started sucking faster and faster and faster that he had to pull her up to stop himself from cumming.

"Stop!" He said breathlessly. "I want to cum inside you and not in your mouth."

Aries kissed her hungrily and rolled over so that could be on top of her. He trailed kisses down her chin, her neck, her chest.. To her tummy and eventually to her pussy lips. He licked her pussy lips apart to expose her clit and sucked it. Marie almost died in pleasure. He then inserted a finger, then another into her dripping hole and fingered her slowly. He stopped sucking her clit and moved his fingers faster in and out of her pussy.

Marie didn't know what to feel. It felt fucking good that she kept whimpering and moaning and arching her back as Aries furiously fingered her pussy.

"OHHH MYYY GOOOOODD!!!" She almost screamed as waves and waves of orgasm overcame her body.

"Good girl," he whispered.

He didn't give her time to recover and positioned himself between her legs and pointed his cock at the entrance of her pussy, felt her wetness and pushed gently. He felt her tremble when his cock slid inside her. When it was half-way in, he shoved his entire length which caused Marie to gasp. He groaned when he felt how tight her pussy was.

He didn't move for a while and relished the feeling of his cock in her pussy. He kissed her passionately, sucking her tongue and biting her lower lip occasionally. He started to move slowly.

Marie moaned. "That feels good," she whispered.

He smiled and continued to move at a slow and steady pace.

"God, your pussy feels so good!" He told her.

Aries couldn't hold it any longer. He picked up the pace and moved faster and faster. Marie's moans became louder and louder.

"Ohhhh… Yeaahhhh.. Shiiittt… That feels sooo goooddd! Ahhhh… Ahhh… Fuck!! Don't stop, please.. Please.. I wanna cum!!" Marie begged.

Aries sped up his movement and pounded her pussy with all his might. He wanted her to cum, he wanted to cum. Soon, he could feel a tightening in his balls indicating he's about to cum.

"Fuck, I'm cumming," he told her.

"Yes, yes.. Cum inside me, cum in my pussy.. I want to cum with you," Marie encouraged. She knew she was so near. And when he kissed her, her body convulsed as an orgasm hit her. Her moans were muffled by his mouth on hers.

Aries felt her body tremble and her nails dug into his arm, indicating that she came. After a few more thrusts, he groaned and spilled his cum in her pussy.

He collapsed on top of her, both were breathing heavily. He felt her fingers caress his back. He propped himself up, kissed her and rolled away from her and laid on his back.

Marie automatically laid her head on her chest, hugged him.

"I wish we could stay like this forever," she whispered and kissed him on the cheek.

Soon after, her breathing became even and she drifted off to dreamland, unaware that Aries was staring up at the ceiling, deep in thought.

How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?
How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?

That was the last time Marie saw Aries. After that incident, she felt him change. He doesn't message or call her often anymore. If she does message him, his replies would be late or worse, very short. Her calls were mostly rejected. Gone were the days when they would message each other incessantly about things and exchange random ideas. And now, it's been days since she heard from him.

"I miss you," Marie has been typing and erasing those words on her phone. She can't seem to make up her mind whether to send it or not. She's been having this constant internal battle about how she must feel for him.

Oh, you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast I feel too much
I thought that you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive

It's been 2 months since their last meetup and almost a month since they had contact with each other. He stopped replying to her messages and after several tries, she finally gave up trying to reach him. She has resigned to the fact that he's not going to contact her anymore. She had no one to blame but herself. She pushed him against the wall by being true to herself and her feelings. And that scared him away.

"If only I didn't fall in love," she smiled bitterly, tears started to trickle down her cheeks, one by one.

She continued to sip her coffee at the same coffee shop where they first met, at the same seat where she sat that day, still, somehow hoping he would suddenly show up as the music played…

Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face that told me
Maybe, you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive

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A/N: Inspired by a fellow author and friend, Panatiko, when I read his "You're In Love" story. Although writing stories with references from songs is not new to me, this is the first time I wrote using the full song as basis. I hope you enjoyed!