Her One That Got Away - 1

Foreword:

This story is closely related to me. I asked this specific person if I can share this story here, and pumayag naman. Di ko pa matapos yung ginagawa kong story, so I am injecting this one muna while I am doing it. All names here were changed so as to protect the privacy of the people involved in this story na din.

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This story happened eighteen years ago. This is one of my stories with him that I will always remember. Marami na din ang nagbago, but it seems that everything happened as if it was just a month ago.

My name is Lanz, hindi ko totoong pangalan, but you can say na totoong palayaw ko iyan sa totoong buhay. I am thirty six years old now. Currently residing here in Amsterdam, happily married with two kids. My husband is American-Filipino-German. Ako naman ay Filipino-Spanish.

I was born and raised until my third year of college in the Philippines. My family is from the north, we had a business back then na nasa Manila, kaya paroo't parito nalang din kami. Bunso ako, at dalawa lang kaming magkapatid and at that time, ang kuya ko ay nasa Germany na, working as a banker. My family comes from a lineage of bankers, at ako lang ang naiba.

During my highschool days, sa isang exclusive for girls ako pinag aral ng mga magulang ko, sa norte. Masasabi kong masaya naman ang naging highschool life ko, at that time, marami na din ang nanliligaw sa akin. They say na kamukha ko daw that time si Pia Guanio. Mostly nang mga nanliligaw sa akin ay either galing sa kalapit na eskwelahan namin o mga kakilala ng kakilala ng kuya ko. There was this one guy na kapatid ng kabarkada ng kuya ko ang masasabi kong persistent suitor ko. Hindi pa uso ang tinatawag na friendzone noon, but you can say na yun nga ang inabot niya sa akin.

Noong tumuntong ako ng first year college, nag request ako sa mga magulang ko na pumunta ng Manila, upang doon mag aral. Pinalad naman akong makapasok noon sa Katipunan at kumuha ng English Literature. Ako palang yata ang kauna unahan sa pamilya namin ang hindi luminya talaga sa pagbabangko. Naging kasapi din ako ng isang sikat na org that time na puro manunulat ang miyembro. Naging parte din ako ng pep squad noon at laging sumisigaw ng One Big Fight! At marami padin talaga ang nanliligaw sa akin noon, at minsan naiisip ko na kung bang kaya ko pa bang ibalik ang naging katawan ko noong dalaga pa ako. Di naman ako losyang, maalaga talaga ako sa katawan and isa nga daw akong hot MILF ngayon, ayon na din sa asawa ko.

College days were the best for me kahit diko natapos sa Pilipinas. I met a guy who turned my world upside down. I'd say he was the best boyfriend I ever had. Di ko alam if andoon siya sa TOTGA status, but that's what I can say, hindi siya perfect and yet he was my happiest. I met him sa isang summit sa BORA, but that would be in another story nalang siguro. What I am to tell you is a story where in our lives completely changed forever.

I have never been honest with him about my future. That I am only waiting for a petition from my parents in the USA. Wala naman akong planong seryosohin siya, and yet umabot naman ang relasyon namin ng more than one year. His name is Liam. Just like me, pareho kaming may alpha personalities. We would clash kahit sa pinaka maliit na bagay. Pero sobrang passionate namin sa isa't isa. Pag nag aaway kami, away talaga, but not to the point na nagkakasakitan kami. That time, We were both past the legal age naman na, kaya pag nagbati kami, intense din ang love making namin. All out kami, siguro dahil mga bata pa at nag start palang kami mag explore, kaya tumatagal kami to the point na nagmamanhid na ang mga organ namin.

So dumating na nga ang petition papers ko, and in one week, aalis na ako papuntang America. Ang una kong ginawa ay asikasuhin ang mga papers ko sa school dahil hindi ko matatapos ang semester sa taon na yun. Gusto ko din mag spend ng time kasama si Liam, kaya ginagawan ko ng paraan na magkasama kami. Wala siyang kaalam alam sa mga nangyayari that time. I would ask him na mag skip siya ng class nang week na yun. We went to various places, out of town and whatnot. As in all out date talaga.

Three nights before my flight, I asked and begged him to stay with me, and mag sleepover sa bahay ko. By the way, He was my first, Liam got me as a virgin. Maharot lang ako noon, pero di ako palaka. It was automatic naman din na pag pumupunta siya sa bahay namin, whether mag sleepover or hindi, we'd sex. We'd make love. That night was somehow different. We met in Cubao, had our dinner at Burgoo, and I gave him a bit of shopping. That guilty feeling, so para siyang parting gift sakin that time. I am willing to buy him a pair of shoes and a new phone. All out parting gift talaga, pero ayaw niya. He can buy naman if he wants to, sabi niya. Di naman bago sa kanya na ipag shopping ko siya, because that was and still my stress reliever.

We went home, sa bahay namin. I made sure na nakauwi na yung stay out keeper namin. I went straight to my room while he stayed sa sala to watch sa cable. I prepared my best lingerie, and even had an argument with myself if I should wear tback no leave it naked, funny me. Then I went straight sa shower, siguro may one our pa ako doon. I really made sure na presentable ako sa kama and wants to have the best sex, or love making or parting sex, whatever. I made sure that I don't have any pubes, he is going gaga kasi pag shaved. Wore my reddest lipstick, and light make up. Lumabas ako ng room to check him and told him to take his bath. Medyo nagulat pa siya nang makita niya ang ayos ko na naka make up. Natatawa ako sa reaksyon niya, coz he almost lunge at me and ready to pounce me.

While he was in the shower, I prepared some brewed coffee. Pareho kaming mahilig sa kape, one of those things I love about him. While preparing it, hinubad ko na yung robe ko, and waited for him patiently sa kusina. I was running my imagination that time kung anu anong position gagawin namin, gusto ko kasi maging memorable for both of us. Naisip ko pa noon na, dapat ako yung hahanap hanapin niya lang, or kung may makita siya, mag compare siya and he'd realize na ako padin ang on top ng list niya. Yes, sobrang selfish ako, siguro dahil na din sa spoiled brat din talaga ako, and I am an alpha female. Tulala ako that time, until naramdaman ko nalang na may pumisil ng butt cheek ko at pag hahaplos sa braso ko. Nakalabas na pala siya ng shower room.

"Ang seryoso mo naman hon." ang sabi niya sa akin habang tuloy lang siya sa paghaplos sa braso ko. Napaungol nalang ako nang umpisahan na niyang halik halikan ang gilid ng leeg ko. That sent shivers to my spine. This guy really knows how to make me horny.

"N-nothing h-hon.. J-just thin-aahhhh-king of something-aaahhhhh.." all I wanted at that time was to answer him, but Liam just continued what he started doing.

"And what might that be, hmm?"

"Uuuuhhhhhmmmmmm" tanging ungol nalang ang naisasagot ko sa kanya. I started to grind my butt sa harap niya, I slightly bend my ass pa para maramdaman ko yung cock niya.

As I have said, he is my first, but looking back, my only comparison for his dick is porn. And I can say na, he is above average sa mga pinoy in terms of length. If could remember, he is a six, pero yung girth and head ng cock niya, yun yung talagang nakakapag baliw sakin before, I always feel like na virgin ako everytime he fucks me Such a gifted guy.. My next boyfriend and my husband are longer than him, an eight and seven, respectively, pero hindi mataba.

He moved back na kasa kasama ako. Naupo siya sa high chair, and I made sure din na mauupuan ko ang cock niya, then he started pinching my hard nips and caressing my breasts. Just further describe my body, medyo thicc ang thighs ko that time, mabalakang din, I am already a 34b, 24 waist and 35. Reason why he really loves the position is me being on my fours.

He started to kiss my shoulder, then up licking my neck to my ears. Pag yan ang ginagawa niya sa akin, ay sobrang horniness talaga nararamdaman ko noon, starter palang niya yun pero my wetness before, its as if nag cum na ako. Nag umpisa na din siyang i mash ang dalawang suso, mashing and pinching my nips are his go-to move on me, di ko alam but I really love this kind of foreplay dati.

"Aaaahhhhh h-h-hon, ang saraaahhhpppp aaahhhhh" sobrang sarap naman kasi ng foreplay niya lagi, specially when he starts playing my clit, mashing my boobs, then kissing my shoulder.

"Sobrang basa mo hon ah. Are you that horny?" mga ganun kami mag dirty talk dati.

"L-Liam..h-hon.. Aaaahhhhhhh" yun nalang ang naisasagot ko, puro ungol.

Di ko na rin kinaya that time, I stood up then humarap ako sa kanya, opened my lingerie, may snap kasi sa my boobs ko banda yung lingerie. My boobs bounced, I leaned on him to kiss him. Agad agad naman niyang inabot ang boobs ko then pinasadahan ang wet pussy ko. All I can do was to moan. Since naka boxer shorts naman siya, I immediately let his hard cock to come out and then slowly, jinakol ko siya. Dahan dahan din akong kumalong sa kanya without interrupting what I was doing.

I stopped kissing him and then dahan dahan akong yumuko. That night, all I am thinking is mag all out, make it super duper special sesh. My parting sex with him. I do blowjobs on him naman as part of our foreplay, kaya lang sasaglit lang, siguro mga four to five minutes lang, kasi nga ang lapad ng cock niya, so parang mapupunit lagi ang bibig ko. But that night, I wanted to try to make him cum in my mouth.

"Shit honey, ang sarap. Are you that horny?" ang tanong niya sakin habang binoblow job ko siya. I just looked into his eyes, naglandi landi pa ako while blowing his cock.

"Hon! Aaaahhhhh, fuck!" medyo mahigpit yung pagsabunot niya sa akin while I am sucking his cock like a vacuum. Tumagal kami sa ganun, siguro mga 10 to fifteen minutes pa ata yun, I am that determined to make him cum by blowing him. Until he said na he is cumming.

"Hon..hon..aahhhhh I'm cumming hon." nakailang ulit pa siya nun and to his surprise hindi ako tumigil sa pagblowjob until he came to my mouth. That was my first time swallowing his cum. And one of my rare occasions to swallow a cum. My second boyfriend had not experienced that from me. My husband, siguro twice ata yun nung wala pa kaming anak, then once lang after I gave birth to our first child.

His cum was thick, and not bad ang lasa, actually I liked it. Parang gusto ko pang gawin sa kanya yun that night and if he wants to, that's what I thought. I sucked him more to clean it up. I'm so amazed na hindi man lang lumambot yung cock niya that night, as if gusto niya akong sulitin din. Usually, he'd have his time, like fifteen to 20 minutes.

"Hooonnn!!" I screamed nung bigla niya akong buhatin na parang bagong kasal na bride. He carried me to my bedroom which is on the second floor of our house. I am almost or atleast naked kasi naman naka buka na yung lingerie ko, and my undies that time is a terno to my lingerie pero see through.

Pagdating namin sa room, inihiga niya ako sa kama ko. The only light there was ay yung street lights sa labas at sa garden namin, which serves as dim light na din sa room ko. He was about to go down to my pussy nang pigilan ko siya. I want to see his face, I was memorizing his face features, and then gave him peck kisses. Okay, hindi siya siya gwapo, yung as in head turner guy. His looks is more like a totoy, baby face siya, so walang masyadong dating talaga sa akin. He is in between gwapo and an average looking guy. Though, I love his long eyelashes and his lips. Parang eyelashes ng kabayo na well trimmed. But his brain is, oh my god, super attractive. Matalino siya, not a nerd, but may pagka weirdo. I cannot say na sapio sexual ako, kasi may looks siya and somehow naman ay slightly above average yung katawan niya, yung tipong kaya niya akong buhat-buhatin.

That time, I was really, as much as possible, holding up any tears that might fall from my eyes. I am holding any sad emotions, good thing that night din naman, he is really making me horny. Then he kissed me back, una malamyos lang, then we switched to frech kissing to torrid kissing to the point na nasasabunutan ko na siya and curling my body to the sensation of his kisses. I said I like his lips too, and he is a very good kisser, as in. His kisses went down to my neck, to my shoulders and to my breasts.

"Aaaaahhhhhhhhh uuhhhmmpp ihhhhh aaaahhhhhh" he has sucking my boobs and nips, salitan while playing my clit. Di ko na alam kung anong galaw pa gagawin ko, my toes were stretched out. Andyan yung bubukaka ako then iipitin ko yung legs ko due to the sensation.

"H-ha-hon aaaahhhhhh" I couldn't contain my moans when he started to slide two fingers inside my wet pussy. I can feel my juices were gushing out papunta sa singit ko at sa butthole ko.

"Hon!" nagulat talaga ako when he used his thumb to play my butthole, encircling it with my juices.

"What, don't you like it?" he playfully asked me. His eyes were lustful but ever considerate.

"I-I find it weird, but…the..the sensation-aaaaahhhhhh soooo goooddd hooonnn" Okay, I am a moaner in bed talaga specially if super sarap sa pakiramdam ko. And all I could do at that time was to moan.

He kissed my tummy, played his tongue sa navel ko then licked my clit. Doing all of those while his two fingers were slowly fucking my wet pussy and playing my butthole. Sa sobrang horny ko, pinagbukahan ko pa yung legs ko and even opened my pussy slit further using my finger so he can suck and lick my clit. And he always makes me cum using his mouth, before penetration. Maybe because we were young, still in heat of sex, kaya ganun.

"S-shit hon! Don't stop please..I'm cumming na aaahhhhmmmmmm…iihhhhhhaaaahhhhh" I came to his mouth, and that time, di ko na din alam kung ilang beses na niyang nagagawa sa akin yun, but he always does. But that night, feeling ko na drain ako instantly without any penetration.

Inipit ko talaga muna legs ko and begged him to remove his fingers inside my pussy kasi sobrang sensitive ko that time, and any movement feeling ko mag cum ako ulit. He obliged naman and kumuha siya ng water sa mini fridge ko. Pawis na pawis ako and hinihingal talaga. Yung cock niya, dahil matigas talaga, feeling ko pwedeng sampayan ng towel eh.

I motioned to him to lie down next to me. Pagkahiga niya, I instantly went over him and umayos naman siya na parang paupo sa kama. I kissed torridly again, I cannot contain my horniness that night, or should I say, I don't want the heat to dissipate agad agad. I let my pussy slit to slide on his cock. Dahil basang basa padin ang pussy ko madali lang akong nakakagalaw. I moved forward and backward to tease more of his cock and sensation is good both on my clit and my pussy lips. He started to mash my boobs again, at ako naman, pabilis na ng pabilis ang paggalaw ko. Di na rin ako nakatiis, umangat ako and took his cock, and ako na nagpasok nun sa pussy ko. We would always joke na either masikip lang ang pussy ko or talagang mataba ang cock niya that's why parang laging na de-vriginize ang feeling namin, parang laging first time. But our last fuck sesh, para akong virgin talaga and made me bleed (enough of it, ikukwento ko yun right after this one.).

"Aaaaahhhhhhhhh aaaaahhhhhhhh aaaaahhhhhhhh ooohhhhhhhhh gggoooodddd aaaahhhhhhhh" para akong baliw that night, tumutulo ang laway ko habang nag mo moan, sa sobrang sarap ng nararamdaman ko while I am fucking Liam.

I am still riding him, this is my most favorite position with him. I feel so full sa ganitong position, and hitting my spots perfectly.

"Di ka nakakasawang kantutin hon, you are so good and so delicious." ang sabi sakin ni Liam while I am grinding sa ibabaw niya. I almost lost my horniness when he said it, buti nalang nilaro niya agad yung nips and clit ko. Instantly nag switch back ako.

"I'm cumming honey. I'm cumming! Aaaahahhhhh" Isang bounce ko pa sa cock niya ay nag cum ako. Then without removing his cock to my pussy, nakapag palit na kami ng position, I am on my all fours now. He fucked me slowly.

Nagulat ako nang tapikin niya yung butt cheek ko, then dahan dahan niya akong hinihila paatras. Bumaba siya sa bed ko, standing and he positioned me on a better doggy style, he spread my legs pa ng kaunti. He made two slow thrust and it was the most perfect sensation sa akin. He started slowly, and I let soft moans out.

"Oh MY God! AAAAHHH!" sobrang sarap ng sensation when instantly made hard and fast thrust sa pussy ko. I let all my moan out, sigaw kung sigaw na talaga. I even mashed one of my boobs and played it.

"Hon, I'm cumming na!" I know, this is his go-to position if he wants to cum.

"Cum inside me hon, I-I-I aaaahhhhh saaafffeee." madalang na madalang ko siya pinapayagang mag cum sa akin kahit safe ako. Nasanay kami and strictly withdrawal kami. Pareho din namin ayaw gumamit ng condoms.

There and then he came and exploded inside me. It was warm, and I swear nag cum pa ako dahil sa sensation na nag cum siya inside me. It took a minute before he removed his cock in my pussy. Naramdaman ko nalang na medyo parang manhid yung pussy lips. I went straight sa banyo to wash up, and mag half bath na din. Maya maya pa sumunod na din siya sa akin sa bathroom. Nagharutan pa kami saglit lang, but I never let him touch me sa sensitive parts ng katawan ko para naman may pahinga kami.

After washing up, nahiga na kami sa kama. I checked my phone and it was already one in the morning. Nagkwentuhan pa kami, kung anu ano lang, and that's one of those things na love ko sa kanya, we can talk about anything. Lagi siyang may sagot, which I find sa ibang guys at that time na super boring. Either kalibugan lang or super shallow kausap, nakakainis. But with him, I can speak my mind even in my most weird state. Walang dull moment sa kanya, well depende sa definition niyo ng dull moments. But with him, we can talk about everything, from shallow things to deepest one.

I woke up with some sensation in between my legs. I thought I was dreaming kaya lang nilalaro niya yung nips and breasts ko. He was in between my legs, licking my pussy. We had another round before leaving the house. Hinatid niya ako sa Gateway Mall at saka siya umuwi sa kanila. Ang sabi ko sa kanya, pupunta ako sa pinsan ko sa Paranaque, but the truth is kukunin ko lang yung ticket ko. Sa makalawa na ang flight ko papuntang US.

We were still having constant SMS during that day. Bago ako matulog, it was my last message to him, thanking him, saying how much I love him. It was a good thing na showy naman ako sa kanya in terms of my affection for him, so it was a normal conversation for us. Then I blocked his number. It was a painful decision back then, I betrayed him. Wala akong guts na sabihin sa kanya yung situation at mga nangyayari. For me back then, I thought, I'll just give it a shot, show him how superior I am and maybe, at some point he will break up with me. I was wrong, I fell for him deeply. I loved him.

From the day of my flight, to my arrival sa New York, hindi ako nagparamdam sa kanya for three months. I sent him an email, telling him my whereabouts, saying sorry. Actually, Wala akong masabi sa kanya that time. I fully understand na I am wrong at that time. After sending him an email, I blocked him totally from my life. I never made any contact with him for two years after that last email. Oo, tiniis ko yun, and my decision haunted me and hurt me painfully. Walang gabi na hindi ko iniyakan yun. Walang araw na hindi ko siya inisip at sinabi sa sarili kong nagsisisi sa mga naging desisyon ko.

I was not ready for any long distance relationship at that time, that's why I chose to ignore him, I chose to break his heart, and my heart as well. I know you'd say it was a stupid decision, and yes, I admit it was a stupid one. Nakikibalita lang ako sa kanya through my cousin na barkada naming lahat. Nung una, ayaw niyang magkwento dahil sa ginawa ko, pero noong lumaon, nagkwento na din siya about Liam. And time by time, I can picture out na nag move forward na siya. Samantalang ako, ayun parang tanga na nag la-lament sa desisyon ko.

I tried to move forward too, but I guess, iba talaga ang naging impact niya sa akin. And I realized, I loved him deeply. I tried changing myself, I studied hard, nakipag fling din ako during my college days sa US but never entertained any suitors nor dated anyone. Kahit naman nakikipag fling ako, no sex at all. Tamang harot harot lang ganun.

After two years, I was able to finish my studies, bago ako mag apply sa work, I decided to go back sa Pilipinas. The only one person I told my plan to was my cousin na barkada naming lahat. He said na mag organize siya ng get together with everyone, since uuwi ako. He even asked if he can invite Liam, out of courtesy. I said okay lang naman, and I am planning din naman na kitain siya and tell him everything, once and for all. Ang hindi lang ako sigurado if he totally moved on from me. I mean kung bang okay na siya, at kung may bago na ba siya.

My flight is in one week.

Paglapag ng eroplano sa NAIA, at the back of my head, I am hoping that I would see him, ask for his forgiveness. I am ready to face him.