Tutor IX

Hindi ko namalayan ang oras na nakatambay kami sa Starbucks, chatting and doing catch ups. We were interrupted when he had to pick up his phone. Tumayo siya at lumabas upang kausapin kung sino man ang tumawag. I checked my phone and boy it was already evening, at napansin ko na may couple of missed calls at messages. When I looked at it, si Phil natawag at may message din siya.

"Are you busy today?"

"Maybe outside? Ayain sana kita today kung free ka. If not, maybe next time nalang."

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako. I just then realized, medyo nanghihinayang ako. His messages were already 3 hours past. I opted not to answer nalang din, when Jacob got back.

"Is everything okay?"

"Y-yeah. Why?"

"Eh kasi nakita ang lalim ng hinga mo, so I guess something is not okay, atleast."

"Don't mind me. Is that work or family?" napalingon siya sa kaliwa niya bago pa siya sumagot.

"Yeah, uhm work. May mga specifics lang na need from me."

"By the way, I need to go home na, it's already 8pm na pala."

"Doon padin ba kayo nakatira?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Ihahatid na kita."

"Wag na no, nakakahiya naman. Besides, I can take a cab or grab."

"No, I insist. Tara na."

We went straight sa parking area, at umalis na ng mall. It was a Saturday so expected na ang traffic. Along the way, tahimik kami parehas sa loob ng kotse. At siya na din mismo ang bumasag sa katahimikan namin.

"Hindi parin nagbabago ang mannerism mo sa loob ng kotse eh no hehe." nagulat naman ako sa sinabi niya at kunot noong napatingin sa kanya.

"That mannerism of yours, nakapangalumbaba, nakatingin sa labas as if malalim iniisip. At naka de otso."

"You used to do that from highschool to college." at naalala pa nga niya talaga. Napaisip ako bigla, do I do this as well pag kasama ko si Phil sa kotse niya?

"You may have changed a lot, but there were still things na hindi nagbabago sayo Layza." ngumiti lang ako sa sinabi niya.

"And I miss you." nawala ang ngiti ko sa narinig ko. Pagtingin ko sa kanya ay diretso siya nakatingin sa daan at seryoso ang mukha.

Just what the fuck. Wala akong naisagot doon. Well, hindi ko rin naman alam kung ano ang isasagot ko sa kanya, or kung may gusto nga ba akong sabihin sa kanya. What's between the two of us was over kung meron man, a long time ago.

"Is there something you want to tell me or ask me?" tanong niya sa akin habang naka stop kami sa stoplight.

"Huh? Like what?"

"Like.. Bakit ako biglang nawala. Bakit wala akong sinabi noon."

"I don't know what you are talking about, Jacob."

"Layza, I know back then you were in love with me. And so am I."

"What?"

"I know you were in love with me. I took your virginity as a social experiment. Remember, ayaw ko sana, pero sabi mo nga gusto lang mag experiment."

"It's true, experiment lang talaga…" Di ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko nang halikan niya ako sa labi ko.

"Jacob! What do you think you were doing?!"

Diniretso niya ang kotse after the greenlight at itinabi iyon after namin makalampas sa intersection.

"Am I wrong? Wasn't it true?"

"It was just an experi…" muli ay lumapat ang mga labi niya sa labi ko.

"Lie to me again."

"I told you…" hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero lumaban ako sa mga halik niya. It was still the same kiss the way he kissed me that day.

F L A S H B A C K

"Wala ka ba talagang nililigawan Jacob?"

"Wala nga kasi."

"Look at me atleast when you answer my question, Jacob."

"Wala nga. Kulit neto."

"O bakit galit ka?"

"Ang kulit mo kasi. May gusto ako. Gusto kong ligawan. Pero di pa ngayon."

"Weh?"

"Anyway, since wala ka naman nililigawan kahit both legal age na tayo, may gusto akong gawing experiment sana eh."

"At ano naman yun aber Layza?"

"I want to know how does it feel kung hindi mo partner or wala kang relationship ang ka sex mo."

"What?! Are you insane Layza?"

"The last time I checked, I am still intact and sane. Hehe sooo, I want it to be with you sana. I mean, we are both single. Or do you want me to do it with someone else?"

"Heck no.The nerve. At di ako papayag."

"Di ka papayag na? Mag sex tayo or sa iba ako mag conduct ng experiment ko?"

"Stop teasing me Layza. Di ako papayag na sa iba ka mag conduct niyang experiment mo."

"So you want me to do it with you? Not bad…"

He kissed me right there and then. The next thing is we were both naked on his bed, in his room. Nasa ibabaw ko siya, looking into my eyes deep, I cupped his handsome face, and pulled it towards me to kiss him. We were biting each other's lip, sucking and licking each other's tongue.

"A-ang sarap mo humalik Layza."

"You are my first kiss, Jacob."

We kissed again, until his kisses got to my chin, down to my neck, to my surprise, he traced his tongue from my neck down to my cleavage. I was in a trance, without thinking about kung first time niya nga ba or hindi. It was as if he already knew what to do, but all I could think of was it was a great feeling. My pussy is getting more wet.

"Aaaahhhhhh J-Jacob uuuhhhhhhh"

All I could do was to moan as he suck my breasts. Salit salitan ang pag subo niya while cupping it. Nariyan din yung didilaan niya nang salitan ang mga utong ko, then sisipsipin and then he would suck it. My back would arche with the sensation he was giving me, I could feel his hard cock poking my wet pussy.

"Ffuucckk Jacob ang sarap aaahhhhh"

Habang nag moan ako in pleasure, lalo niyang pinag iigihan ang ginagawa niyang pag suso sa akin. Hinawakan niya yung dalawang kamay ko gamit ang kaliwang kamay niya, nilagay sa ulunan ko, then he planted kisses on my breasts na may kasamang pag dila. Inumpisahan niya na din ilapat ang mga daliri ng kanang kamay niya sa pussy lips ko He was rubbing it as if he was locating something, nariyan pang binubuka buka niya ang pussy lips ko. When he found what he was looking for, diniinan niya ang mga daliri niya at saka pinaikutan.

Napaigtad ako sa ginawa niya, he was looking to play for my clit. Para akong pusa dahil sa sarap na ginagawa niya sa clit ko. Nariyang halos ipitin ko ang legs ko o di kaya ay ibuka ang mga legs ko. Nakanganga ako dahil sa sensation na tinatanggap ko, habang nilalaro niya ang clit ko ay isnusuo niya naman ako.

"Ssshhiiittt aaaahhhhhhhh" all I could do is to manage my moan dahil hindi ko alam kung may makakarinig sa amin or what. Patuloy lang siya sa paglalaro sa puke ko.

"Owfuck Jacob ang sarap niyan aaahhhh sshhiiitttt. I think I'm uuhhhmmmmffff aahhhh cumming I think aaaahhhhhh yyeessss aaahhhhh"

"Shit you came, Layza."

Hinngal ako dahil sa cum ko. Pero feeling ko hindi pa yun yung climax ko talaga. Nang tignan ko si Jacob, tuwang tuwa siya sa nakita niyang reaction ko.

"How did you manage to do that Jacob? Parang and dami mo nang alam ah."

"H-ha? Hindi naman. Napapanood ko lang sa porn."

Yun ang hindi ko maintindihan talaga sa kanya. Ever since high school, whenever I feel like there is something wrong sa mga sagutan niya, he would look to his left, away from my eyes. Instead of dwelling with it, I took his cock and unti unti ko yun itinaas baba. I really don't know what I am doing.

"Wag mo masyadong higpitan Layza."

"Sorry. Ganito ba?"

"Yeah, ganyan nga. Then slowly, jakulin mo. move it up and down."

"Okay. Like this?"

"Yeahhhhh sshhiitt fast learner ka."

Jinakol ko siya ng jinakol, hanggang mangawit ang kamay ko. Napapapikit pa siya at napapaungol sa ginagawa ko. When I looked at him at nakita kong naka pikit siya, yumuko ako at dinilaan ko ang ulo ng matigas niyang titi. Walang amoy, malinis ika nga, pero I tasted his pre cum, medyo maalat alat but I did not budge in, hindi naman masama ang lasa. After nun ay sinubukan kong isubo ang titi niya at saktong sakto sa bibig ko. Buti nalang talaga, may dildo akong mapag papractisan sa bahay. Naughty me.

"Oh shit Layza, that's so good. Walang kasabit sabit ah."

"Did you like it?"

"Of course, I like it. Tagna, buti nalang ako ang binigyan mo neto. Ang sarap."

"Enjoy! Hihi."

He was controlling hard not to cum, pero at the end of it..

"Fuck I'm cumming Layza oh fuck!"

Sumabog ang tamod niya sa kamay ko. Di pa ako ready na lumunok o lumasa ng tamod. It was kinda messy. Tumayo naman siya at kumuha ng pamunas, at buti nalang meron siyang sariling restroom. Nagdiretso ako doon para makapaglinis at makapaghugas. Paglabas ko ng banyo niya ay nakita ko siya na nakasilip sa bintana, pero hawak ang telepono niya. Palapit na sana ako nang harapin ako neto at muli akong hinalikan.

"That was so intense, tangna, di ko aakalain na virgin ka."

"Hindi naman. Napapanood ko lang sa porn." he was taken aback with my answer. Of course that was his answer earlier.

"Why all of a sudden, yung totoo Layza, bakit may pa ganito kang experiment?"

"Wala. I was just thinking if hindi ba talaga na eenjoy ang sex kung hindi mo asawa o jowa ang ka partner mo sa bed."

"What?! Hindi yan parang bibili ka lang ng services no."

"And what about the sex dens? Prostitution. They're selling their services."

"Tigilan mo ako sa mga twisted ideas mo Layza."

"No, they are not haha! They exist. Ano kahapon ka pinanganak?" Of course, I cannot tell him that I may be in love with him and I want him to be my first.

I did not get any answer, instead, bigla niya akong hinapit sa beywang at hinalikan. His kisses were deep, his tongue was trying to look for something inside my mouth and it turned me on. And just like earlier, nilantakan niyang muli ang mga suso ko.

"Aaahhhh that's good Jacob."

"Oh yes, uuhhhmmmmm more Jacob ang sarap!"

He gently pushed me sa kama niya at pinagbukahan niya ang mga legs ko. He started to lick my pussy which in return, made it wet. Puro ungol ko lang ang maririnig sa room that time, as he continuously lick my clit and my pussy lips. Back then, since it was my first, satisfied na talaga ako sa ginagawa niya to the point na talagang nagbabasa na ang puke ko. Ipinagbukahan niya ang mga legs ko at ikiniskis ang titi niya sa puke ko.

"Are you sure about this, Layza? Wala nang atrasan to."

"Yes!"

Pinagpatuloy niya lang ang pagkikis ng titi niya sa puke na may pagsundot sundot. Dinahan dahan niya ang ang pagpasok nun sa puke ko. The ever gentleman, he was trying to be gentle as much as he could. Paulit ulit pero hindi pilit ang ginawa niyang pagpasok sa akin. Andun yung kirot at kada makikita niya na napapangiwi ako ay hindi niya pinipilit.

"Are you okay Layza?" ang pag aalala sa mukha at tono niya. Pero determinado ako.

"Yes. Please."

Isang ulos pa at pumasok na ang titi niya sa puke ko. Napatingala ako sa kirot na nararamdaman ko. Hindi muna siya gumalaw, he kissed me gently at ganun din ang ginawa niya sa magkabilaang suso ko to make sure na babalik ang libog ko. And he was successful.

"It's okay now Jacob, please fuck me."

"Yes Layza."

Muli ay umulos siya dahan dahan. Dahan dahan ang kada hugot at baon niya. Nakakaramdam na ako ng sarap at padulas na ng padulas ang puke ko. Ang kirot ay agad din namang napalitan ng sarap. It was a gentle sensation, hindi brusko at hindi nagmamadali. I had that conotation that it was a loving fuck, syempre sa akin lang yun. At that time, I am already satisfied with the way he fuck me. Masarap oo, coz I am doing it with Jacob.

Habang tumatagal ay bumibilis at lumalalim ang kantot niya sa akin. It was just missionary, pero nakahawak siya sa mga binti ko, trying to spread it. All I could was to moan at kagatin ang labi ko para di ako makagawa ng kahit anong ingay. His eyes were shut, siguro nga ay ganun masarapan si Jacob.

"Ang sarap ng puke mo Layza shit! Ang sikip!"

"Sige pa Jacob fuck!"

"Ayan na ako Layza! Lalabasan na ako!"

"Wait Jacob, sabay tayo."

"Fuck Layza uhhmm uuhhmm ayan na ako!"

"Jacob.."

"Oh Fuuucckk uuhhhhhh fuck!"

". . ."

"Shit Layza. Sorry, ang sarap mo kasi. Babawi ako later."

"Okay lang Jacob. Dyan lang muna sa loob ko."

"Sige."

"Kiss me Jacob."

He obliged to kiss me. At some point he made me feel wanted, he longed for me, yung mga halik niya, malamyos, maingat. I could feel his cock starting to be ready for another round. By that time, he started rough. Malalakas na bayo ang ibinigay niya sa akin at napayakap nalang ako sa kanya.

"Oh shit Jacob, there please. I can feel it."

"You want it rough huh."

"Ang sarap aaaahhhhh fuck fuck fuck yeah I'm cumming!"

That was my first ever cum though fuck. Not bad for starters. After the deed, pinaglinis muna niya ako. I was expecting there would be a huge mess and blood all over his bed, but both of us were relieved na kaunti lang yung dugo, not a messy one. After resting and all, hinatid niya na ako sa amin. Of course I am happy with the deed, I am no longer a virgin, and Jacob popped it. Pero pagkatapos nun ay parand distant na siya. Pinapansin padin naman niya ako, its just that I felt like it was cold.

After a month, nabalitaan ko nalang na nag drop na siya sa school. Pumunta na siya ng Canada, and the reason? Nakabuntis. The fuck, how the hell did that happen. Wala naman akong nakikitang ibang babaeng kasama niya sa school. It turned out na yung nabuntis niya ay anak ng ka sosyo ng dad niya at newly boyfriend/girlfriend. Hindi ko na inalam pa ang ibang detalye. Hindi na rin naman siya nagparamdam, and nabalitaan ko nalang na buong pamilya niya ay nasa Canada na. It was not a pleasant experience, and as what they would say in layman's term today, kantot-kalimot.

Back to reality.

After that kiss in the car, there was one thing I realized, his kiss was the same, gentle, hindi nagmamadali. Then, Phil's face popped in my head out of nowhere. Natigilan ako. Just what the.

"Layza.."

"Hatid mo na ako sa bahay Jacob."

"Oh, sure sure."

Nakita ko pa siyang napangiti. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, maybe because of that kiss, I responded to him very well. I could still feel his lips onto mine. Gusto ko sana magtanong, more about him. He told me na divorced na sila ng asawa niya at umuwi siya dito para ituloy ang family business nila. He made sure to tell me earlier din that he missed me. That he regretted leaving without telling me anything at all. Napatingin ako muli sa labas ng bintana.

"We're here na Layza. Let's go."

Napakurap kurap pa ako, nasa labas na pala kami ng bahay namin. Bumaba na din ako ng kotse ni Jacob. Pagbukas ko ng pintuan namin, I heard voices, nagtatawanan pa.

"Ate!"

"Layza anak."

"Aba ang sasaya niyo naman. Nga pala Ma, Jacob is..here.."

Halos mawala ang ngiti ko ng lumabas sa dining room namin si Phil. He was there, may bitbit na pagkain.

"Hello tita. Kumusta po?"

"Jacob! Good to see you son. Okay naman kami. It's been a while. Kailan ka pa andito?"

"Bale one week na din po tita."

"Halika upo upo. By the way, andito si Phil. Oh there you are ijo."

"Ahem, ate." I came back to my senses. Putangina, ano to.

"Phil. This is Jacob. Jacob, this is Phil."

"Mr. Lorenzo, good to see you here."

"Same to you Mr. Macaraig. Didn't know na acquainted ka pala sa mga Buenaventura."

"Yep he is. He was my tutor. Still my tutor though. Teka magkakilala kayo?" ang mataray na sabat ni Iza.

"Really? Aba, di ka lang pala negosyante Mr. Macaraig ha. Yep magkakilala kami, Iza"

"He is really a good teacher though."

"That's nice to know Iza."

"By the way, dumaan lang talaga ako para ibigay tong cake, pasasalamat ni Pinky. Gotta head back na sa gym. See you around Mr. Lorenzo."

"Aalis ka na agad kuya? Ayaw mo ba mag stay muna?"

"Hindi na, I need to be back sa gym at uuwi din ako agad kasi."

"Ija, ihatid mo naman si Phil sa labas."

"Yes ma. Phil?"

"No worries po, I can manage. Thank you. Bye po."

"Phil.."

Shit and damnation.

Nag stay pa si Jacob sa bahay namin a couple of hours bago siya nagpaalam umalis. Simula nang umalis si Phil, I was checking my phone, baka may message siya. Pero wala, hanggang sa makaalis na nga si Jacob. After an hour, I received a message, agad agad ko naman binuksan. I felt disappointed nang makita ko na si Jacob ang nag text, telling he's home. Sinagot ko na lamang ito ng OK, at saka ako nahiga sa kama ko muli. I hate this feeling, parang ang pait sa panglasa.

Nakatulugan ko nalang ang nararamdaman ko. Kinabukasan, Sunday. Agad akong nag check ng phone ko pero wala ni isang message galing kay Phil, pero online ito sa kanyang messenger. I opened his chatbox, at nakipagtitigan doon. I don't know what to tell him, I was so occupied with Jacob yesterday at hindi ko nasagot ang message niya. But then again, di naman kami and I'm not obliged to answer his messages right? Yeah right, sa ilang beses na kaming nag sex ganun lang yun?

F U C K

Nagpagulong gulong muna ako sa kama before doing anything. There and then, I decided, pupunta nalang ako sa gym ni Phil. Likely baka nga nagtatampo siya sa akin. I hope hindi siya galit. Tumayo na ako at naligo, I chose dress, para pwede diretsong date if ever okay na siya or kung hindi siya galit. Pero napaisip din naman ako, galit nga ba siya sakin? Bakit siya magagalit. Bakit nga ba ganun nalang reaction ko kagabi nang makita ko siya na kasama si Jacob.

Shit and damnation.

Pagbaba ko ng room, I was shocked to see Jacob.

"Jacob, what are you doing here?"